We hear the deep pain and despair in your words, and our hearts break for the torment you are enduring. You are not alone in this struggle, and we stand with you in prayer, lifting you before the throne of grace where mercy and help are found in times of need (Hebrews 4:16). The feelings of hopelessness and the weight of tinnitus, fear, and academic struggles are heavy burdens, but we serve a God who hears the cries of His children and promises to sustain them.
First, we must address the thoughts of not waking up or hoping to die in your sleep. These are not thoughts to be entertained or taken lightly, for your life is precious to the Lord. Scripture tells us, "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit" (Psalm 34:18). You are not a financial battery or a burden—you are a child of God, fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14). The enemy seeks to steal, kill, and destroy, but Jesus came that you may have life and have it abundantly (John 10:10). We rebuke the spirit of despair and hopelessness in the name of Jesus and command it to flee. You are not forgotten, and your life has purpose, even when it feels unseen.
We are grateful you are turning to Scripture, for it is alive and active, sharper than any double-edged sword (Hebrews 4:12). The Psalms, in particular, are a balm for the weary soul, as David and other psalmists poured out their hearts before God in raw honesty. We encourage you to meditate on Psalm 42, where the psalmist cries out, "Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God." Even in the depths of despair, there is hope in the Lord. Continue to type the Word of God, for it will not return void (Isaiah 55:11). Your labor in this is not in vain, and we pray the Lord strengthens you to complete this task as a testament to His faithfulness.
Your mention of Ritalin and ADHD is understandable, as seeking medical help for mental health struggles is wise and biblical. Luke, the physician, was a companion of Paul, and we see in Scripture that God uses medicine to bring healing (Colossians 4:14). However, we must also remind you that true peace and healing come from the Lord. While medication may help manage symptoms, it is Jesus who heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds (Psalm 147:3). We pray for wisdom for your doctor and that the Lord guides their decisions regarding your treatment. May He grant you clarity of mind, focus, and relief from the torment of tinnitus and hallucinations.
You feel the Lord has interfered with your plans, such as joining the military, and you question His providence. It is natural to wrestle with these feelings, but we must trust that God’s ways are higher than our ways (Isaiah 55:8-9). The Lord closes doors for our protection and opens others for His purposes. Proverbs 16:9 reminds us, "In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps." Instead of seeing these closed doors as punishment, we encourage you to ask the Lord to reveal His will for your life. What is He calling you to do in this season? How can you serve Him where you are? The Lord has a plan for you, one that is good and filled with hope (Jeremiah 29:11).
Your family’s lack of connection is painful, especially when they do not share your faith. It is difficult to walk this path alone, but remember that Jesus understands rejection and loneliness. He was despised and rejected by mankind (Isaiah 53:3), yet He remained faithful to the Father. We pray the Lord softens their hearts and draws them to Himself. In the meantime, seek out a biblical community—a church or small group—where you can find fellowship and encouragement. Iron sharpens iron, and you need others to walk alongside you (Proverbs 27:17).
We also want to gently address your statement about the Bible taking away your money and friends. The Word of God does not bring loss; it brings life. However, the enemy often distorts our perception of truth when we are suffering. When we draw near to God, He draws near to us (James 4:8), but the enemy will try to isolate us and make us believe lies about God’s character. The Bible is not the source of your struggles—it is the source of your strength. We rebuke the lie that following Christ has cost you more than it has given. The Lord promises to provide for our needs (Philippians 4:19) and to give us a family in the body of Christ (Mark 10:29-30).
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up our brother who is struggling under the weight of despair, fear, and physical torment. Lord, You are the God who sees, the God who hears, and the God who heals. We ask that You would wrap Your arms around him and remind him of Your unfailing love. Break the chains of hopelessness and fill him with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7).
Father, we rebuke the spirit of suicide and despair in the name of Jesus. We declare that his life is precious to You, and we ask that You would renew his mind and restore his hope. Give him the strength to continue typing Your Word, and let this act of devotion be a source of blessing and encouragement to his soul. Help him to see the progress he is making, even when it feels small.
Lord, we pray for his upcoming doctor’s appointment. Grant wisdom to the physician and clarity to our brother as they discuss treatment options. May the medication prescribed bring relief from the symptoms of ADHD, fear, and tinnitus, and may You use it to help him focus and thrive in his studies. But more than that, Lord, we ask that You would heal him from the inside out. Touch his mind, his body, and his spirit, and restore him to wholeness.
We ask that You would reveal Your purpose for his life. Show him the path You have for him, and give him the courage to walk in it. Open doors of opportunity where You desire him to serve, and close the doors that are not part of Your plan. Help him to trust in Your timing and Your ways, even when they are different from his own.
Father, we pray for his family. Soften their hearts to Your Word and draw them into a relationship with You. Until that time, surround him with godly friends and mentors who will encourage him in his faith. Let him find his identity in You, not in the opinions or actions of others.
Lord, we thank You for the peace and providence You have already given him. We ask that You would continue to provide for his needs, both financially and emotionally. Help him to see Your hand at work in his life, even in the small things. Remind him that he is never alone, for You are with him always (Matthew 28:20).
We pray all these things in the mighty name of Jesus, the name above all names, the name by which we are saved and through which we have access to the Father. May Your will be done in his life, and may he come to know You more deeply through this trial. Amen.
We encourage you to reach out to a trusted pastor, biblical counselor, or Christian friend who can walk with you through this season. You do not have to carry this burden alone. The Lord is your refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1). Keep pressing into Him, for He is faithful, and His mercies are new every morning (Lamentations 3:22-23).
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
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