We lift you up before the Lord with deep compassion for the many struggles you are facing—spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and practically. It is clear that you are carrying heavy burdens, and we are grateful that you have turned to Jesus Christ for help, for He alone is your strength and deliverer. You have called upon His name, and that is where true hope lies. As it is written, *"There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who don’t walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit"* (Romans 8:1). Whatever regrets or condemnation you feel, know that in Christ, you are forgiven, redeemed, and being made new. Your past mistakes—whether with substances, finances, or decisions made in fear—do not define you. The Lord is faithful to complete the work He has begun in you (Philippians 1:6).
First, we must address the spiritual foundation of your request. You have invoked the name of Jesus Christ, and that is where your victory lies. There is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12), and it is only through Him that we have access to the Father (John 14:6). Your faith in Him is what will sustain you, not your own efforts or achievements. You mentioned feeling condemned by faith or regretting reading the Bible, but let us remind you: *"Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God"* (Romans 10:17). The Word of God is not a source of condemnation for those who are in Christ; it is a lamp to your feet and a light to your path (Psalm 119:105). If you have felt condemned, it may be the enemy seeking to distort the truth. The Bible says, *"Therefore there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus"* (Romans 8:1). Cling to this truth and reject any lie that says otherwise.
We also notice the deep racial and mental struggles you described, particularly the association of the black hand grippers with troubling thoughts. Racism, prejudice, or any form of ungodly fixation is not of the Lord. *"There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free man, there is neither male nor female; for you are all one in Christ Jesus"* (Galatians 3:28). If these thoughts persist, they may be a manifestation of the spiritual battle taking place in your mind. *"For though we walk in the flesh, we don’t wage war according to the flesh; for the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but mighty before God to the throwing down of strongholds, throwing down imaginations and every high thing that is exalted against the knowledge of God and bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ"* (2 Corinthians 10:3-5). We pray that the Lord would break these strongholds in your mind and replace them with His peace and truth. If these thoughts are tied to past trauma or substance use, we urge you to seek godly counseling or support to walk through this healing process.
Your mention of medication is a practical concern, and we encourage you to seek wisdom from the Lord and trusted medical professionals regarding Adderall or any adjustments to your current prescriptions. *"The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps"* (Proverbs 16:9). While medication can be a tool the Lord uses for stability, it is not the ultimate solution—your hope must remain in Christ. If you are struggling with focus or motivation, we encourage you to pray for the Lord’s strength and discipline. *"I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me"* (Philippians 4:13). He is the one who equips you for every good work (2 Timothy 3:17).
Your academic and career concerns are valid, but we urge you not to place your identity or worth in these things. *"Don’t be anxious for anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus"* (Philippians 4:6-7). The Lord is your provider, and He knows your needs before you even ask (Matthew 6:8). If returning to your previous job is His will, He will open that door. If He has another path for you, He will make it clear. Trust in His timing and sovereignty. *"Commit your way to the Lord. Trust also in him, and he will do this: he will bring out your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday"* (Psalm 37:5-6).
Regarding your fears about the military, learning, or social isolation, we remind you that *"God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control"* (2 Timothy 1:7). Fear is not from the Lord, and He desires to replace it with His perfect love (1 John 4:18). If you feel called to serve in the military, pray for clarity and courage. If not, trust that the Lord will guide you into the path He has prepared for you. As for friendships, we encourage you to seek fellowship with other believers. *"Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow; but woe to him who is alone when he falls, and doesn’t have another to lift him up"* (Ecclesiastes 4:9-10). The body of Christ is meant to support and encourage one another (Hebrews 10:24-25). If you are not currently part of a church, we strongly urge you to find a biblically sound congregation where you can grow in community.
Your mention of streaming and the anxiety it brings raises a question: Is this something the Lord has truly called you to, or is it a distraction from His purposes for your life? *"Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord, and not for men"* (Colossians 3:23). If streaming is causing more anxiety than fruit, it may be wise to step back and seek the Lord’s direction. *"Unless the Lord builds the house, they who build it labor in vain"* (Psalm 127:1). Your time and energy are precious, and the Lord desires you to steward them well for His glory.
Finally, we must address the financial decisions you made in the past. While it is commendable to desire generosity, giving away your money out of fear or impulsivity is not wise stewardship. *"If anyone doesn’t provide for his own, and especially his own household, he has denied the faith, and is worse than an unbeliever"* (1 Timothy 5:8). The Lord calls us to be generous, but also to be wise and responsible. We pray that He would restore what has been lost and provide for your needs as you seek Him first (Matthew 6:33).
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we lift our brother before Your throne of grace, asking for Your mercy, healing, and deliverance in every area of his life. Lord Jesus, You see the depths of his heart—the struggles with addiction, mental health, racial thoughts, fear, loneliness, and the overwhelming weight of his responsibilities. We ask that You would break every chain of bondage in his mind and heart. Cleanse him from every ungodly thought, memory, or association that does not align with Your Word. Fill him with Your peace, which surpasses all understanding, and guard his heart and mind in Christ Jesus.
Lord, we pray for wisdom regarding his medications, his studies, and his future. Give him clarity of mind to learn and retain what he needs, and open doors for him to walk through in Your perfect timing. If it is Your will for him to return to his previous job, make a way. If You have another path for him, reveal it clearly and give him the courage to walk in it. Father, we ask that You would provide for his financial needs and restore what has been lost. Help him to be a good steward of the resources You give him, and lead him to generosity that is led by Your Spirit, not by fear or impulse.
We pray for godly friendships and community for him. Break the isolation and bring brothers and sisters in Christ into his life who can encourage, support, and sharpen him. Lord, if there is any bitterness, regret, or condemnation in his heart, we ask that You would replace it with Your love, forgiveness, and hope. Remind him that he is a new creation in Christ, and that his past does not define him.
We rebuke every spirit of fear, anxiety, confusion, and distraction in Jesus’ name. We declare that *"the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world"* (1 John 4:4). Lord, fill him with Your Holy Spirit, that he may walk in power, love, and self-control. Give him the strength to resist temptation, to focus on what is pure and true, and to walk in the freedom You have purchased for him.
Father, we ask that You would give him a hunger for Your Word and a desire to seek You above all else. Let him find his identity in You alone, not in his achievements, his past, or the opinions of others. May he know deep in his soul that he is loved, chosen, and redeemed by You.
We thank You, Lord, for hearing our prayers. We trust that You are working all things together for his good, because he loves You and is called according to Your purpose (Romans 8:28). Give him patience to wait on You, faith to trust in You, and hope to keep moving forward. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, we pray. Amen.
