We lift you up before the Lord, knowing that your heart is heavy with both gratitude and deep struggles. First, we rejoice with you for the four years of sobriety from cocaine—this is a mighty testimony of God’s power and grace in your life! The Lord has indeed shown you His mercy, and we praise Him for the peace, providence, and progress you’ve experienced in His name. It is only through Jesus Christ that we find true freedom, and your journey is evidence of His faithfulness.
Yet we must address some troubling thoughts you’ve shared, as they do not align with the heart of God or the truth of Scripture. You mentioned hoping that others—specifically the cocaine dealer and drug addicts—would suffer religious attacks without salvation. Beloved, this is not the mind of Christ. Jesus commands us to love our enemies, bless those who curse us, and pray for those who persecute us (Matthew 5:44). He came to seek and save the lost (Luke 19:10), and His desire is that *all* would repent and come to the knowledge of the truth (2 Peter 3:9). Even while you were still in sin, Christ died for you (Romans 5:8). We must extend that same grace to others, no matter how deeply they’ve wronged us. Let us pray for their salvation, not their suffering, for vengeance belongs to the Lord (Romans 12:19).
You also expressed the belief that people shouldn’t be involved with the church because of Satan’s attacks. This is a dangerous lie from the enemy himself. The church is the body of Christ, and we are called to gather together, encourage one another, and stand firm against the schemes of the devil (Hebrews 10:25, Ephesians 6:11). Satan attacks *because* the church is powerful, not because it is weak. Isolation leaves us vulnerable, but in community, we find strength, accountability, and the fullness of God’s gifts (1 Corinthians 12:12-27). Do not let fear or past wounds keep you from the very place where God designed you to thrive. If you’ve been hurt by the church, we grieve that with you, but we urge you to seek a biblical, Christ-centered fellowship where you can heal and grow.
Regarding the guilt you carry for mocking a deaf person, we encourage you to bring this before the Lord in repentance. He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9). There is no sin too great for His blood to cover, and His mercy is new every morning (Lamentations 3:22-23). Do not let shame keep you from receiving the fullness of His forgiveness. Instead, let this conviction lead you to a deeper walk with Him, where His love transforms your heart to reflect His compassion for all people, including those with disabilities (Luke 14:13-14).
Finally, we notice that while you’ve expressed gratitude to Jesus, there’s a mix of hope and uncertainty in your words about your own salvation. Let us be clear: salvation is not a hope—it is a *confident assurance* for those who place their faith in Jesus Christ. The Bible tells us, “If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved” (Romans 10:9). It is not by our works or our ability to “earn” forgiveness, but by grace through faith (Ephesians 2:8-9). If you have truly repented and trusted in Christ alone for your salvation, then you *are* saved—completely, eternally, and irrevocably. Rest in that truth, and let it anchor your soul.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we thank You for the work You’ve already done in this precious soul—four years of sobriety is a miracle, and we praise You for it! Lord, we ask that You would continue to cleanse and renew their mind, washing away every trace of guilt, shame, and bitterness. Where there is resentment or a desire for vengeance, replace it with Your love and compassion. Help them to forgive as they’ve been forgiven, and to pray for those who’ve harmed them, just as Jesus taught us.
Father, we rebuke the lie that the church is a place to avoid. Instead, lead them to a body of believers who will walk alongside them in truth and grace. Heal their wounds from past hurts, and show them the beauty of Your bride, the church. Surround them with godly men and women who will spur them on toward love and good deeds.
Lord, we ask for a fresh outpouring of Your Spirit upon them. Where there is doubt about their salvation, replace it with unshakable faith in the finished work of Christ. Remind them that they are Your child, redeemed by the blood of the Lamb, and nothing can snatch them from Your hand (John 10:28). Give them a heart that beats for the lost, including those who’ve led them into sin. May they see these individuals through Your eyes—as souls in need of a Savior.
Strengthen them in their sobriety, Lord. Guard their heart and mind against temptation, and fill the voids in their life with more of You. Let them experience the joy of Your presence daily, and may they walk in the freedom and purpose You’ve called them to.
We declare victory over every scheme of the enemy in their life. No weapon formed against them shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17), and they are more than a conqueror through Christ who loves them (Romans 8:37). May they live in the fullness of this truth, for Your glory and their good.
In the mighty and matchless name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, we pray. Amen.
