We come before you in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother who is clearly in the midst of a fierce spiritual battle. The thoughts and struggles you’ve shared are deeply concerning, and we must address them with both truth and compassion, for the Word of God tells us, *"For we don’t wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, and against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places"* (Ephesians 6:12, WEB).
First, we must rebuking the dark and dangerous thoughts that have taken root in your mind—thoughts of violence, curses, and bitterness toward others. These are not from God, but from the enemy who seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). The desire to harm another person, even in your thoughts, is a grave sin, and we urge you to repent immediately. *"But I tell you, that everyone who is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the judgment; and whoever says to his brother, ‘Raca!’ shall be in danger of the council; and whoever says, ‘You fool!’ shall be in danger of the fire of Gehenna"* (Matthew 5:22, WEB). Jesus calls us to love our enemies and pray for those who persecute us (Matthew 5:44). The thoughts you’ve described are in direct opposition to the heart of Christ, and we must reject them in His name.
Your mention of asking Jesus to "bless a list of demons" is deeply troubling. Demons are not to be blessed—they are to be rebuked and cast out in the name of Jesus. *"Be sober and self-controlled. Be watchful. Your adversary, the devil, walks around like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour"* (1 Peter 5:8, WEB). To entertain such thoughts is to open a door to spiritual oppression, and we command every ungodly influence in your life to be broken now in Jesus’ name. You must renounce these thoughts and turn fully to Christ, for *"No one can serve two masters"* (Matthew 6:24, WEB).
The belief that others are "leeching" from your spiritual progress or that you are possessed by them is also not of God. These are lies from the enemy to isolate you and distort your perception of reality. *"For God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control"* (2 Timothy 1:7, WEB). If you are struggling with paranoia or delusions, we strongly encourage you to seek godly counsel from a pastor or a Christian mental health professional. There is no shame in seeking help—God often uses others to bring healing and restoration.
Your mention of a Daniel fast is good if your heart is right before God, but fasting must be accompanied by repentance and a turning away from sin. *"Isn’t this the fast that I have chosen: to release the bonds of wickedness, to undo the straps of the yoke, to let the oppressed go free, and that you break every yoke? Isn’t it to distribute your bread to the hungry, and that you bring the poor who are cast out to your house? When you see the naked, that you cover him; and that you not hide yourself from your own flesh?"* (Isaiah 58:6-7, WEB). Fasting is not a tool to curse others but to humble yourself before God and seek His will.
We also address your struggle with PTSD. The Lord sees your pain, and He is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). But we must warn you: if you do not surrender these bitter and violent thoughts to Jesus, they will consume you. *"Be angry, and don’t sin. Don’t let the sun go down on your wrath, and don’t give place to the devil"* (Ephesians 4:26-27, WEB). You must forgive those who have wronged you, not for their sake, but for yours—so that bitterness does not take root and defile you (Hebrews 12:15).
Lastly, your comment about reading the Bible and feeling it’s vain to share what you’ve learned is a dangerous lie. The Word of God is alive and powerful (Hebrews 4:12), and we are called to *"let the word of Christ dwell in you richly; in all wisdom teaching and admonishing one another with psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs"* (Colossians 3:16, WEB). Sharing the truth of Scripture is never in vain—it is how we build one another up in the faith.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother who is trapped in a storm of darkness and confusion. Lord, we ask that You break every ungodly thought, every curse, every bitterness, and every lie of the enemy that has taken hold of his mind. We rebuking every demonic influence in Jesus’ name and command it to flee. Father, fill him with Your Holy Spirit, renew his mind, and replace his violent thoughts with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7).
Lord, we ask for healing from the trauma he has endured. Restore his mind, his emotions, and his spirit. Help him to forgive those who have wronged him, just as You have forgiven us. Remove every root of bitterness and replace it with Your love. We pray for godly counsel and wisdom to surround him—whether through a pastor, a Christian therapist, or a strong believer who can walk with him through this season.
Father, we also pray for protection over his heart and mind. Guard him from the enemy’s attacks and help him to stand firm in Your truth. Let him know that You are his refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1). Break the spirit of fear and paranoia, and let him walk in the freedom of Your Son, Jesus Christ.
We declare that no weapon formed against him shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17), and we ask that You would give him a new heart and a new spirit (Ezekiel 36:26). Let him find his identity in You alone, not in the lies of the enemy. We pray all these things in the mighty and matchless name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.
Our brother, we urge you to seek help immediately. You are not alone in this fight, but you must take action. Confess these struggles to a trusted believer, seek professional help if needed, and immerse yourself in the Word of God. *"Submit therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded"* (James 4:7-8, WEB). The Lord is with you, and He will never leave you nor forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6). Turn to Him now, and He will set you free.
