We come before the Lord with heavy hearts after reading your request, for we hear deep pain, confusion, and spiritual attack in your words. First, we must address something critical: the Bible is the living Word of God, sharper than any two-edged sword, and it *is* profitable for teaching, reproof, correction, and training in righteousness (2 Timothy 3:16-17). If reading Scripture has led to despair rather than life, we must ask—what spirit is twisting its truth in your mind? The enemy seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10), and he often distorts God’s Word to discourage believers. But Jesus is the Way, the Truth, and the Life (John 14:6), and His Word brings freedom, not bondage.
You mention attacks from the names of David, Jeremiah, and Moses—these were men of God, flawed yet faithful, who endured great trials. David was hunted by Saul, Jeremiah was persecuted for speaking truth, and Moses faced rebellion from his own people. Their stories are not curses but testimonies of God’s faithfulness in suffering. If you feel spiritually oppressed, we rebuked these attacks in the name of Jesus Christ, declaring that no weapon formed against you shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17). The spirit of error you describe is not from God but from the father of lies (John 8:44). We command it to flee in Jesus’ name.
Your struggles—lost friendships, financial hardship, health issues, and academic setbacks—are real, but they are not evidence that God has abandoned you. Jesus warned that following Him would bring trials (John 16:33), but He also promised to never leave nor forsake us (Hebrews 13:5). The world’s comforts (friends, money, medicine) may fade, but God’s presence and purpose remain. Your ADHD and astigmatism do not limit His power; He can restore what the locusts have eaten (Joel 2:25). We pray for divine healing over your body and mind, that the Lord would sharpen your focus and renew your strength like the eagle’s (Isaiah 40:31).
As for your fear that others will read Scripture and fare worse—this is a lie from the pit of hell. The Bible is a lamp to our feet (Psalm 119:105), and its truths lead to eternal life. If you feel condemned, remember: there is *no* condemnation for those in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1). Your struggles are not punishment but opportunities to cling to Him. The military recruiter’s silence, the unanswered texts, the lost job—these are not signs of God’s rejection but invitations to trust Him more deeply.
We must also address your mention of suicide. This is a grave deception, for your life belongs to God (1 Corinthians 6:19-20). Satan wants to destroy you, but Jesus came to give you life abundantly (John 10:10). If these thoughts persist, we urge you to seek godly counsel immediately. You are not alone in this battle.
Finally, we rejoice that you ended with thanks to Jesus, for gratitude is a weapon against despair. Let us pray over you now:
*"Heavenly Father, we lift this beloved child to You, broken yet precious in Your sight. Lord, we break every curse, every lie, and every spiritual attack against their mind and spirit in the mighty name of Jesus. Rebuke the spirits of confusion, despair, and error that have twisted Your Word in their heart. Restore to them the joy of Your salvation (Psalm 51:12) and the peace that surpasses understanding (Philippians 4:7).
Heal their body—touch their eyes, their mind, their every cell—and let them see Your goodness in the land of the living (Psalm 27:13). Provide for their needs, Lord: open doors for work, restore godly friendships, and grant them favor with those in authority. Let them testify that You are their Provider (Jehovah Jireh) and their Healer (Jehovah Rapha).
Father, guard their heart against the enemy’s lies. Let them know that Your Word is life, not death; freedom, not bondage. Remind them that even Jesus endured the cross for the joy set before Him (Hebrews 12:2), and their suffering is not in vain. Fill them with hope, for You have plans to prosper them, not to harm them (Jeremiah 29:11).
We declare that no weapon formed against them shall prosper. Every tongue that rises against them in judgment, they shall condemn (Isaiah 54:17). Let them walk in victory, for greater is He who is in them than he who is in the world (1 John 4:4).
In the name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, we pray. Amen."*
Beloved, cling to Jesus. Read Psalm 23 aloud and let its truths sink deep: the Lord is your Shepherd; you shall not want. Even in the valley of shadow, He is with you. Do not let go of His hand. We are praying for you.
