We lift you up before the Lord with deep compassion, for your struggles are many, yet your heart cries out to Jesus Christ, the only name by which we are saved. It is through Him alone that we find strength, healing, and restoration, and we rejoice that you are turning to Him in your time of need. The Scriptures remind us in Philippians 4:13, *"I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me."* Though your mind and body have been battered by trauma, addiction, and spiritual warfare, Jesus is greater than all these things. He is the God of restoration, the One who redeems what has been broken and makes all things new.
Your desire to improve in language, mathematics, physical health, and spiritual discipline is commendable, but we must first address the spiritual battle you are facing. The enemy seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10), and it is clear that he has been at work in your life through addiction, demonic oppression, and the lingering effects of trauma. Yet, the Lord has already begun a good work in you—freeing you from smoking, helping you resist video game addiction, and giving you moments of clarity to seek Him. We praise God for this! However, you must put on the full armor of God to stand firm (Ephesians 6:10-18). This includes rejecting every thought of relapse, every whisper of the enemy that tells you to return to "blue skies" or "white lines." These are not just substances; they are gates to bondage, and Jesus has called you to freedom. *"No temptation has taken you except what is common to man. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure"* (1 Corinthians 10:13).
You mentioned that your medication is helping with insomnia and depression, and we thank God for this provision. However, we urge you to seek the Lord first and foremost for your healing. Medicine can aid, but true and lasting peace comes from Christ alone. *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest"* (Matthew 11:28). Have you surrendered every area of your life to Him? Have you confessed your sins and invited the Holy Spirit to fill you, to renew your mind, and to break every chain of the enemy? If not, we strongly encourage you to do so now. Repentance and faith in Jesus are the foundation of all transformation.
Your frustration over finances and education is understandable, but remember that the Lord is your Provider. *"But seek first God’s Kingdom and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well"* (Matthew 6:33). You do not need premium education to learn what the Lord wants to teach you. There are free resources—libraries, online courses, and community programs—that can help you grow in knowledge. The Lord can open doors you cannot even imagine. Trust Him to guide you to the right materials and opportunities. As for your fear of not improving while working, we encourage you to seek the Lord’s wisdom in this. Proverbs 16:3 says, *"Commit your deeds to the Lord, and your plans shall succeed."* If you are faithful in small things, He will entrust you with more.
Your physical health is also a concern, and it is good that you are seeking to strengthen your body. However, we caution you against an unhealthy fixation on achieving a "bodybuilder body" as a standard. The body is a temple of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19-20), and we are to steward it well, but our focus should be on honoring God, not on worldly ideals. If the Lord provides weights or a pull-up bar, praise Him for it. If not, trust that calisthenics and walking are sufficient for now. *"Bodily exercise profits a little, but godliness is profitable for all things, having promise of the life that now is and of that which is to come"* (1 Timothy 4:8). Be patient with yourself, and do not let fear of injury keep you from progress. Start small, seek guidance if needed, and let the Lord build your strength in His time.
We are deeply concerned by your mention of relatives who may be contributing to demonic attack or taking advantage of your faith. The Bible warns us that *"bad company corrupts good morals"* (1 Corinthians 15:33). If there are those in your household or family who are hindering your walk with Christ—whether through mockery, manipulation, or outright spiritual opposition—you must set boundaries. Pray for them, but do not allow their influence to drag you down. *"If it is possible, as much as it is up to you, be at peace with all men"* (Romans 12:18), but do not compromise your faith for the sake of keeping peace.
Your consideration of joining the military is something to bring before the Lord in prayer. The military can provide structure and discipline, but it is not a guaranteed solution to your struggles. If fear and past trauma are holding you back, ask the Lord to heal those wounds and give you wisdom. *"If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach; and it will be given to him"* (James 1:5). Do not rush into this decision without seeking the Lord’s will. And regarding your driver’s license, take one step at a time. The Lord can help you overcome this fear if it is His will for you to drive.
Finally, we must address your mention of identity issues and drug nicknames. In Christ, you are a new creation (2 Corinthians 5:17). Your identity is not found in the names the world or the enemy has tried to place on you. You are a child of God, redeemed by the blood of Jesus. *"You are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God’s own possession, that you may proclaim the excellence of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light"* (1 Peter 2:9). Reject every lie that says otherwise. If you have not already, we encourage you to publicly declare your faith in Jesus Christ through baptism, symbolizing the death of your old self and the resurrection of your new life in Him.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother who is battling on many fronts. Lord, You see his heart, his struggles, and his desires to honor You. We ask that You break every chain of addiction, every stronghold of trauma, and every scheme of the enemy that seeks to hinder him. Fill him with Your Holy Spirit, Lord, and renew his mind with Your truth. Let him find his identity in You alone, casting off every false name and every lie that has tried to define him.
Father, we pray for healing—spiritually, mentally, and physically. Touch his mind, Lord, and restore his ability to learn, to remember, and to focus. Open doors for him to acquire the knowledge he seeks, whether in language, mathematics, or any other area. Provide the resources he needs, whether through free materials, wise mentors, or unexpected opportunities. Help him to create a steady learning plan, and give him the discipline to follow through.
We pray for his physical health, Lord. Strengthen his body as he walks and exercises. Protect him from injury, and help him to steward his body well for Your glory. If it is Your will, provide the equipment he desires, but let him be content in all circumstances, knowing that You are his Provider.
Father, we ask for Your protection over him against those who would take advantage of him or contribute to spiritual attack. Give him wisdom to set boundaries and courage to stand firm in his faith. Surround him with godly influences who will encourage him in his walk with You.
We lift up his financial concerns to You, Lord. You own the cattle on a thousand hills (Psalm 50:10), and You are well able to provide for his every need. Help him to trust You in this area, and open doors for honest work that will not exploit him but will allow him to grow.
Lord, we pray for his family. Soften their hearts toward You, and let them see the transformation You are working in him. Use him as a light in his household, that they too may turn to You.
Finally, Father, we pray for his future. Give him clarity about whether the military is the right path, and if so, prepare him for it. If not, guide him to the occupation You have for him. Let him walk in Your will, not in fear or uncertainty, but in faith and obedience.
We thank You, Lord, for the progress he has already made. We thank You for his desire to honor You in all things. Continue to work in him, Lord, and let him see the fruit of his labor for Your glory. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
Stand firm in your faith, brother. The Lord is with you, and He will never leave you nor forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6). Keep seeking Him, keep praying, and trust that He is working all things together for your good (Romans 8:28). Do not grow weary in doing good, for in due season you will reap a harvest if you do not give up (Galatians 6:9). We are standing with you in prayer.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
