We are deeply troubled by the words you have shared, for they reveal a heart filled with anger, bitterness, and desires that are not aligned with the will of God. The Scriptures are clear that we are to love our enemies, bless those who curse us, and pray for those who persecute us. Jesus Himself said in Matthew 5:44-45, *"But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you, that you may be children of your Father who is in heaven."* Your words of wishing harm, sickness, and even death upon this man named ### are not of God but are influenced by the enemy, who seeks to steal, kill, and destroy.
The vexation you describe—whether it is the revving of engines or any other form of disturbance—must not be allowed to harden your heart. The Lord calls us to trust in Him, even in the midst of trials. In 1 Peter 5:7, we are reminded to *"cast all your worries on him, because he cares for you."* Your struggle is not against flesh and blood but against spiritual forces, and we must respond with the armor of God, not with malice or vengeance. Ephesians 6:12 tells us, *"For our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world’s rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places."*
The thoughts you have confessed—thoughts of harming ###—are dangerous and must be renounced immediately. The Lord knows the intentions of the heart, and such thoughts are an offense to Him. Proverbs 23:7 warns, *"For as he thinks within himself, so he is."* Instead of entertaining these thoughts, you must take them captive and submit them to Christ. 2 Corinthians 10:5 instructs us to *"bring every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ."*
We must also address the fact that you have not extended forgiveness. Unforgiveness is a poison that destroys the soul and hinders your relationship with God. In Matthew 6:14-15, Jesus says, *"For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you don’t forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses."* You have asked for forgiveness from Jesus, but you must also extend it to ###. Holding onto bitterness will only bring you further bondage.
Lastly, we notice that while you mention Jesus in your request, there is a lack of true repentance and surrender to His lordship. It is not enough to simply invoke His name; we must submit our hearts entirely to Him. If you have not already, you must turn from your sin and place your full trust in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. Acts 4:12 declares, *"There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"* True peace and freedom come only through a genuine relationship with Christ, where we lay down our burdens and allow Him to transform our hearts.
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up our brother who is struggling with anger, bitterness, and thoughts of vengeance. Lord, we ask that You forgive him for the sinful desires of his heart and cleanse him from all unrighteousness. Break the chains of bitterness that have taken root in his soul and replace them with Your love, peace, and forgiveness. Help him to see ### through Your eyes—someone who is also in need of Your mercy and grace.
We rebuke the spirit of anger, hatred, and vengeance that has taken hold, and we command it to leave in the name of Jesus Christ. Fill our brother with Your Holy Spirit, that he may be empowered to forgive as You have forgiven him. Remind him that vengeance belongs to You alone, and that You will repay (Romans 12:19). Give him the strength to release this burden to You and to trust in Your justice and timing.
Lord, we also pray for ###. Though our brother has spoken ill of him, we ask that You would extend Your mercy and grace to him. If ### has wronged our brother in any way, we pray that You would convict him and lead him to repentance. Soften both of their hearts, Father, and bring reconciliation if it is Your will.
We ask that You surround our brother with Your peace, which surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Guard his mind and heart from further attacks of the enemy, and help him to fix his eyes on You. Remind him that You are his refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1).
Finally, Lord, if our brother has not fully surrendered his life to You, we pray that today would be the day of salvation for him. Open his eyes to the truth of Your love and the sacrifice of Jesus Christ on the cross. May he turn from his sin and place his full trust in You, that he may experience the true peace and freedom that comes only through You.
We ask all of these things in the mighty and holy name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.
Our brother, we urge you to seek godly counsel and accountability. You cannot walk this path alone. Find a mature believer or pastor who can walk with you through this struggle and help you apply the Word of God to your life. Read and meditate on Scripture daily, especially passages that speak of forgiveness, love, and trusting in the Lord. Start with Matthew 5-7 and the book of Ephesians. Allow the Holy Spirit to renew your mind and transform your heart.
If you are struggling with thoughts of harming yourself or others, we strongly encourage you to seek professional help immediately. There is no shame in asking for help, and the Lord can use counselors and medical professionals to bring healing.
Remember, the Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18). Turn to Him fully, and He will lift you up.
