We come before the Lord with you in this time of deep struggle, and we are grieved to hear the heaviness of your heart. First, we must address something foundational: you mention Jesus by name, and for that, we give thanks, for there is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12). Yet we sense a profound confusion and bitterness in your words, and we must gently but firmly rebuke the lies that have taken root in your mind. The enemy seeks to distort your understanding of God’s character, His love, and His promises, and we must stand against this with the truth of Scripture.
You speak of feeling betrayed by Jesus because you obeyed His command to bless your enemies (Luke 6:28), and yet suffering followed. But let us be clear: blessing those who persecute you does not mean God promises an absence of trials—in fact, Scripture warns us that suffering will come (John 16:33, 2 Timothy 3:12). The blessing is not in the outward circumstances but in the inward transformation and the eternal reward stored up for those who endure faithfully. Jesus Himself, who was perfect and blameless, suffered unjustly—yet He entrusted Himself to the Father who judges righteously (1 Peter 2:23). If we are to follow Christ, we must also walk the path of suffering, knowing that He is with us and that our trials are producing in us an eternal weight of glory (2 Corinthians 4:17).
Now, let us address the words you have spoken over yourself. Calling yourself a derogatory term like the one you mentioned is not only harmful but is a direct contradiction to how God sees you. You are fearfully and wonderfully made in His image (Psalm 139:14), redeemed by the precious blood of Christ (1 Peter 1:18-19), and called to walk in the dignity of a child of God (1 John 3:1). Speak death over yourself, and you invite the enemy to have a foothold. The Bible says, "Death and life are in the power of the tongue" (Proverbs 18:21). We urge you to repent of these words and begin declaring the truth of Scripture over your life. Renounce every curse you have spoken over yourself and break their power in the name of Jesus.
As for the idea that your physical ailments, such as the cramp in your leg, are religious attacks, we must approach this with discernment. Not every hardship is a direct spiritual attack—sometimes our bodies simply suffer the effects of a fallen world (Romans 8:22). However, we also know that Satan can afflict the body, as we see with Job (Job 2:7). Whether this is a physical issue or something spiritual, we command every infirmity to flee in the name of Jesus, and we pray for your complete healing. But we also encourage you to seek medical attention if needed, for God often uses doctors and medicine as means of His healing (Colossians 4:14).
You mention a sense of religious oppression against Black people and a resistance to the prosperity of Asians. While it is true that systemic injustice and spiritual warfare are real, we must be careful not to attribute every struggle to a grand conspiracy. The Bible tells us our battle is not against flesh and blood but against spiritual forces of wickedness (Ephesians 6:12). Our focus must remain on Christ, who has overcome the world, and on the mission He has given us to love, preach the Gospel, and make disciples (Matthew 28:19). Bitterness and resentment will only weigh you down—cast these burdens at the feet of Jesus and let Him replace them with His peace.
Finally, you speak of "demotivations preventing progress and focus." This is a tactic of the enemy to keep you from fulfilling the purposes God has for you. The apostle Paul faced immense opposition, yet he pressed on toward the goal (Philippians 3:13-14). We urge you to resist the spirit of discouragement and to fix your eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of your faith (Hebrews 12:2). Surround yourself with believers who can encourage you, and immerse yourself in the Word of God, which is alive and powerful (Hebrews 4:12).
Let us pray with you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of Your child, who is burdened by confusion, pain, and spiritual oppression. Lord, we ask that You break every lie that has taken root in their mind and replace it with Your truth. Father, forgive them for the words they have spoken against themselves, and we declare that they are fearfully and wonderfully made in Your image. Every curse spoken over their life is broken now in the mighty name of Jesus.
Lord, we rebuke every spirit of bitterness, resentment, and discouragement that has sought to hinder their progress. We command every demonic stronghold to be torn down, and we ask that You fill them with Your Holy Spirit, renewing their mind and strengthening their faith. If there is any physical affliction, we pray for Your healing touch, Lord. Restore their body, mind, and spirit, and let them walk in the fullness of Your peace.
Father, we ask that You open their eyes to see the spiritual battle around them and to stand firm in Your armor (Ephesians 6:10-18). Give them the courage to bless those who curse them, knowing that You are their vindicator. Remove every obstacle that stands in the way of their purpose, and let them walk in the victory that Christ has already won.
We thank You, Lord, for Your faithfulness, even when we do not understand Your ways. Help them to trust You completely, knowing that You work all things together for the good of those who love You (Romans 8:28). Fill them with Your joy, Your hope, and Your unwavering love.
In the mighty and precious name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, we pray. Amen.
We encourage you to meditate on these Scriptures daily:
- **Psalm 139:13-16** (You are known and loved by God)
- **Isaiah 54:17** (No weapon formed against you shall prosper)
- **Romans 12:14** (Bless those who persecute you)
- **2 Corinthians 10:3-5** (Demolishing strongholds with the Word of God)
- **1 Peter 5:8-9** (Resist the devil, standing firm in faith)
Stay in the Word, stay in prayer, and surround yourself with a community of believers who can support and encourage you. You are not alone in this fight—we are standing with you, and most importantly, Jesus is with you always (Matthew 28:20).
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
