We come before the Lord with heavy hearts, lifting you up in prayer, for we see deep spiritual distress and a battle that must be fought not against flesh and blood, but against the powers of darkness. You have called upon the name of Jesus Christ, and that is where your victory lies—for there is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved, and through which we have access to the Father. We are grateful you acknowledge Him, for He alone is your refuge and strength.
First, we must address the darkness in your words—the desire for another person’s death, soul and body. This is not of God, but of the enemy, who seeks to steal, kill, and destroy. The Lord Jesus commands us in Matthew 5:44, *"But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you."* You are not to wish death upon anyone, no matter how deeply they have wounded you. Instead, we are to overcome evil with good (Romans 12:21). The nickname you were given, the haunting memories, and the feelings of disregard for your person are painful, but vengeance belongs to the Lord (Romans 12:19). Release this bitterness to Him, for it is a poison that will only harm you further. Pray for this person—not for their destruction, but for their salvation and for God to soften your heart toward them. Remember, we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against spiritual forces of wickedness (Ephesians 6:12). Your enemy is Satan, not this individual.
You also mention feeling oppressed by what you perceive as religious and personalized attacks—loud cars, media, and even the advertising of satanic symbols. We understand this can feel overwhelming, but take heart: *"No weapon that is formed against you will prevail; and you will condemn every tongue that rises against you in judgment. This is the heritage of Yahweh’s servants, and their righteousness is from me,"* says the Lord (Isaiah 54:17). You are not at the mercy of these things. Instead, cling to the truth of Psalm 91: *"He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of Yahweh, ‘He is my refuge and my fortress; my God, in whom I trust.’"* When the noise of the world feels like an assault, retreat into His presence. Turn off the media that disturbs you, fill your mind with Scripture, and let worship music replace the chaos. The Lord is your shield, and He will guard your mind and heart in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:7).
We are deeply concerned by your statement that you are *"directed to want other people to be killed."* This is not from God. The Holy Spirit produces love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control (Galatians 5:22-23). Any thought or urge that contradicts these fruits is not of Him. If you are experiencing intrusive or violent thoughts, these could be spiritual attacks or manifestations of the mental health struggles you are facing. We encourage you to share this honestly with your doctor and a trusted, biblically grounded counselor or pastor. Medication can be a tool God uses to bring healing, just as He uses doctors and medicine to restore the body. Proverbs 17:22 tells us, *"A cheerful heart makes good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones."* Trust that the Lord can work through these medications to bring stability to your mind and emotions, but also seek spiritual support. You are not alone in this fight.
You mention the "preciousness of human life is up for debate." Let us be clear: it is not. Every person is made in the image of God (Genesis 1:27), and their life is precious to Him. Jesus died for *all*—even those who persecute you, even those who seem like enemies. Your worth is not determined by how others treat you, but by the price Christ paid for you on the cross. When you feel dehumanized or disregarded, remember that the Creator of the universe knows you intimately (Psalm 139:13-16) and calls you His own.
As for the political oppression you feel, we understand the weight of living in a world where biblical values are often rejected or mocked. The church’s statement about being *"creatures in Christ"* should not be twisted to mean allegiance to any political party. Our citizenship is in heaven (Philippians 3:20), and our primary identity is in Christ alone. While we are called to be good stewards of the rights and responsibilities we have in our nations, our ultimate hope is not in governments or elections, but in the sovereignty of God. Pray for wisdom (James 1:5) in how to engage with the world around you, but do not let political pressures steal your peace. The Lord raises up kings and removes them (Daniel 2:21), and He is not surprised by the state of our nations.
We also note your mention of "lascivious attacks." If you are struggling with sexual temptation or impurity, we urge you to flee from it (1 Corinthians 6:18) and fill your mind with what is pure and honorable (Philippians 4:8). Sexual sin is a tool the enemy uses to bring bondage, but Jesus offers freedom. If this is an area of struggle, confess it to the Lord, repent, and seek accountability with a mature believer who can walk with you in victory.
Finally, we want to pray over you with the authority and love of Christ:
*"Heavenly Father, we lift our brother before You, knowing that You are his strong tower and deliverer. Lord Jesus, You see the depth of his pain—the oppression, the torment, the feelings of being attacked on every side. We ask You to break every chain of darkness that seeks to bind him. Rebuke the enemy who whispers lies, who stirs up hatred, and who seeks to distort Your truth in his mind. Fill him with Your Holy Spirit, Lord, and replace every violent or bitter thought with Your peace and love. Remind him that his battle is not against people, but against the spiritual forces of evil, and that You have already overcome the world.
We pray for healing—spiritually, mentally, and emotionally. Bless the medications he is taking, that they would bring stability and clarity without harmful side effects. Give wisdom to his doctors and guide him to godly counselors who can speak Your truth into his life. Surround him with Your presence, Lord, and let him hear Your voice above the noise of the world. Protect his mind from the enemy’s schemes and fill his heart with Your Word.
Father, we also pray for the person who has caused him pain. Soften their heart, Lord, and if they do not know You, draw them to salvation. Help our brother to forgive as You have forgiven him, releasing the weight of bitterness and trusting You for justice.
We declare that no weapon formed against him will prosper. Shield him from the personalized attacks he perceives in media, in sounds, and in the words of others. Let him rest in the truth that You are his defender and that nothing can separate him from Your love (Romans 8:38-39).
For the veterans and casualties of war he has lifted up, we ask for Your comfort and honor. You are the God who sees every sacrifice, and we trust their souls into Your hands.
Lastly, we pray for his daily needs—restful sleep, endurance, focus, and protection from anxiety. May he find his strength in You, not in coffee or human effort, but in the power of Your might. Fill him with Your joy, which is his strength (Nehemiah 8:10).
We thank You, Jesus, for hearing our prayers. We trust in Your faithfulness and ask all these things in Your mighty name, the name above all names. Amen."*
Brother, we urge you to immerse yourself in Scripture daily. Psalm 119:105 tells us God’s Word is *"a lamp to my feet, and a light for my path."* When the darkness feels overwhelming, let His truth be your anchor. Seek fellowship with other believers who can pray with you and encourage you. If you do not have a church home, ask the Lord to lead you to one where the Gospel is preached boldly and where you can find support.
You are not defined by the oppression you feel or the thoughts that plague you. You are defined by Christ’s love for you. Cling to Him, and He will lead you into freedom. If you ever feel the urge to harm yourself or others, reach out for help immediately—you are not alone, and there is hope in Jesus. Keep fighting the good fight of faith, and trust that the Lord is with you every step of the way.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
