We join you in lifting your heart to Jesus Christ, the only name by which we are saved, for He alone has the power to deliver you from every struggle and to grant you true peace. It is good that you have called upon Him, for Scripture declares, *"There is no other name under heaven that has been given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12, WEB). Your faith in Him is your foundation, and we stand with you in prayer, trusting that He will work mightily in your life.
First, let us address the jealousy that weighs on your heart. Jealousy is a destructive force that steals joy and breeds bitterness, but God’s Word calls us to love, which *"doesn’t envy"* (1 Corinthians 13:4, WEB). Jealousy often stems from a lack of trust in God’s provision and sovereignty. Remember, *"A tranquil heart is the life of the flesh, but envy is rottenness to the bones"* (Proverbs 14:30, WEB). We pray that the Lord would fill you with His love, casting out all jealousy, and that you would find contentment in Him alone. *"Not that I speak in respect to lack, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content in it"* (Philippians 4:11, WEB). Trust that God has a perfect plan for your life, and He will provide all you need in His timing.
Regarding the unusual concerns you’ve shared about bodily functions and superstitions surrounding them, we gently remind you that our trust must be in the Lord, not in signs or coincidences. *"This I say therefore, and testify in the Lord, that you no longer walk as the rest of the Gentiles also walk, in the futility of their mind, being darkened in their understanding, alienated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them, because of the hardening of their hearts"* (Ephesians 4:17-18, WEB). If you are experiencing anxiety or fear tied to these things, we pray that the Lord would free you from such bondage. *"For God hasn’t given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control"* (2 Timothy 1:7, WEB). Let us fix our eyes on Christ, not on the fleeting or superstitious things of this world.
We also lift up your struggle with kidney stones, asking the Lord for healing and relief. *"He forgives all your iniquities. He heals all your diseases"* (Psalm 103:3, WEB). While we trust in God’s healing power, we also encourage you to seek wise medical counsel, for the Lord often works through the knowledge and skills He has given to doctors. It is good to steward your body well, as it is the temple of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19-20). However, we must be cautious not to place our trust in human remedies—like eating eggshells—above trusting in the Lord. *"Some trust in chariots, and some in horses, but we trust in the name of Yahweh our God"* (Psalm 20:7, WEB). If eating eggshells is causing you concern about kidney stones, it may be wise to consult a healthcare professional to ensure you are not harming your body. The Lord desires us to care for our bodies in ways that honor Him, and this includes seeking wisdom in how we nourish ourselves.
You mentioned the "yoke of bondage," and we are reminded of what Scripture says: *"Stand firm therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and don’t be entangled again with a yoke of bondage"* (Galatians 5:1, WEB). If you are feeling enslaved by habits, fears, or even dietary practices, we pray that the Lord would break every chain and set you free in His truth. True freedom is found in Christ alone, not in the things of this world—even things that may seem beneficial. *"Jesus therefore said to those Jews who had believed him, 'If you remain in my word, then you are truly my disciples. You will know the truth, and the truth will make you free'"* (John 8:31-32, WEB).
We rejoice with you in the peace and calmness you’ve found in reading the Psalms. The Word of God is alive and powerful, and it is wonderful that you are engaging with it! *"Your word is a lamp to my feet, and a light for my path"* (Psalm 119:105, WEB). If reading the Psalms at night is causing you to wake at midnight, consider whether the Lord may be inviting you into a time of prayer or reflection. *"At midnight I will rise to give thanks to you, because of your righteous judgments"* (Psalm 119:62, WEB). Alternatively, it may be helpful to pray for restful sleep, asking the Lord to quiet your mind and body so you can awake refreshed. *"I lay down and slept. I woke up; for Yahweh sustains me"* (Psalm 3:5, WEB).
Finally, we encourage you to continue walking in faith, seeking the Lord in all things. Your desire to read the Bible aloud while walking at night is commendable, for faith comes by hearing the Word of God (Romans 10:17). However, we also urge you to be mindful of your safety. The Lord calls us to be wise as serpents and harmless as doves (Matthew 10:16). If walking alone at night poses any risk, consider finding a safe, well-lit place or perhaps listening to the Word while you walk.
Now, let us pray together for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother who seeks Your face. Lord, we ask that You would deliver him from the spirit of jealousy, replacing it with Your perfect love that casts out all fear. Fill his heart with gratitude and contentment, knowing that You are his Provider and his Strength. Break every chain of superstition or fear that has taken root in his mind, and let him walk in the freedom and truth of Your Word. We pray for healing over his body, especially his kidneys, and ask that You would guide him in wisdom regarding his health. Give him discernment in how he cares for the temple of the Holy Spirit, and let him not lean on his own understanding but trust in You with all his heart.
Lord, we thank You for the peace he has found in Your Word. Continue to draw him closer to You as he reads and meditates on Scripture. If there are nights of wakefulness, let them be times of sweet communion with You, filled with prayer and praise. Protect him as he walks, and let Your Word be a lamp to his feet. Father, we ask that You would meet every need in his life—spiritually, physically, and emotionally. Strengthen his faith, and let him know beyond any doubt that You are with him always.
We rebuke every scheme of the enemy to bring confusion, fear, or bondage into his life. By the authority of Jesus Christ, we declare that he is free indeed, and that the truth of Your Word will guide him into all righteousness. May he find his identity and security in You alone, Lord Jesus. We ask all these things in Your precious name, the name above every name. Amen.
We encourage you to keep seeking the Lord, to test every thought and practice against His Word, and to walk in the liberty that Christ has purchased for you. *"Don’t be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what is the good, well-pleasing, and perfect will of God"* (Romans 12:2, WEB). Stay rooted in Scripture, and let the Holy Spirit lead you into all truth. You are loved, and you are not alone in this journey. Keep pressing on in faith!
