We come before the Lord with heavy hearts, lifting you up in prayer as you wrestle with deep spiritual and emotional burdens. The struggles you describe—PTSD, the lingering effects of Adderall, strange voices, spiritual oppression, and family dynamics—are complex and painful. Yet we know that nothing is too difficult for our God, who is mighty to save and deliver. Let us first address some critical truths from Scripture to ground our prayers and responses.
The Bible makes it clear that our battle is not against flesh and blood but against spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places (Ephesians 6:12). The voices you hear, the spiritual oppression, and the lingering effects of trauma and substance use are real, but they are not beyond the authority of Jesus Christ. He has already triumphed over every power and principality (Colossians 2:15), and in Him, we have the victory. However, we must also recognize that some of the things you’ve expressed reveal a misunderstanding of the Holy Spirit, who is not a force to be feared or avoided but the very Comforter and Helper sent by Jesus to guide us into all truth (John 14:26, John 16:13). The Holy Spirit does not "ruin or judge" but convicts the world of sin, righteousness, and judgment (John 16:8)—and He does so to bring us to repentance and life, not condemnation.
It is also important to address the use of Adderall, which is a prescription medication that can have serious physical, mental, and spiritual side effects if misused. The Bible calls us to sobriety and self-control (1 Peter 5:8, Titus 2:12), and while medication can be a tool for healing when used wisely under medical supervision, dependence on or misuse of such substances can open doors to spiritual and emotional bondage. If this is something you are still struggling with, we urge you to seek godly counsel and medical help to break free from its grip, trusting in the Lord’s strength rather than man-made solutions.
As for the strange voices, including the mention of "Nate Lee," and the sense of spirits or ghosts in your home, we must stand firmly on the truth that believers are not to engage with or fear the spirit realm outside of the Holy Spirit. The Bible strictly forbids any involvement with spirits, mediums, or the dead (Deuteronomy 18:10-12, Leviticus 19:31). These are deceptive and dangerous paths that the enemy uses to torment and mislead. If there are spiritual presences in your home, they are not from God, and they have no authority over you as a child of the Most High. Jesus has given us authority to tread on serpents and scorpions and over all the power of the enemy (Luke 10:19). We must command these spirits to leave in the name of Jesus, and we must fill our homes with the Word of God, prayer, and worship to drive out darkness.
Regarding your grandmother’s behavior, it is troubling to hear that she seems to be absorbing or re-enacting aspects of your trauma. This could be a sign of spiritual ties or even generational curses that need to be broken. The Bible warns us that the iniquities of the fathers can affect future generations (Exodus 20:5), but it also promises that when we turn to the Lord, He breaks these chains (Galatians 3:13-14). We must pray for her salvation and deliverance, that she would come to know the truth and be set free from any spiritual influences that are affecting her.
Finally, your statement about wanting to be saved *from* the Holy Spirit is deeply concerning. The Holy Spirit is not the source of judgment or ruin—He is the One who brings life, peace, and conviction that leads to repentance (Romans 8:6, 2 Thessalonians 2:13). Without the Holy Spirit, there is no salvation, no transformation, and no power to overcome sin or the enemy. If you have been hurt or misled by false teachings or experiences that distorted your view of the Holy Spirit, we urge you to seek the truth of Scripture. The Holy Spirit is your advocate, your seal of salvation (Ephesians 1:13-14), and your guide into all truth. To reject Him is to reject the very presence of God in your life. We pray that the Lord would open your eyes to the truth about His Spirit and that you would welcome Him as your Helper and Comforter.
Now, let us pray together for your deliverance, healing, and restoration in the mighty name of Jesus Christ:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up our brother who is trapped in a storm of trauma, spiritual oppression, and confusion. Lord, You are the God who sees and knows all things, and nothing is hidden from Your sight. You are aware of every voice that torments him, every spiritual tie that binds him, and every generational stronghold that seeks to destroy him. We ask that You would intervene mightily in his life and break every chain that holds him captive.
Lord Jesus, You came to set the captives free (Luke 4:18), and we declare that freedom over him now. We bind and rebuke every spirit that is not from You—every spirit of trauma, fear, confusion, addiction, and deception. We command the voice of "Nate Lee" and any other ungodly voice to be silenced permanently in the name of Jesus. We break every spiritual connection, every curse, and every ungodly soul tie that has been formed through trauma, substance use, or generational sin. Let these things be severed by the blood of Jesus and cast into the abyss, never to return.
Father, we pray for complete deliverance from the effects of Adderall and any other substance that has altered his mind or opened doors to the enemy. Restore his brain, his emotions, and his spirit to wholeness. Remove every lingering effect of the drug, every false memory, and every imagination that torments him. Let his mind be renewed by Your Word and filled with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Romans 12:2, Philippians 4:7).
Lord, we also pray for his grandmother. If she has absorbed any of his trauma or is under spiritual influence, we ask that You would break those ties and set her free. Soften her heart to receive Your truth and Your Spirit. Protect her from any further harm and draw her into a saving relationship with You.
Father, we rebuke the fear and misunderstanding surrounding the Holy Spirit. Holy Spirit, we invite You to move powerfully in his life. Reveal Yourself to him as the Spirit of truth, love, and power. Convict him of sin, righteousness, and judgment in a way that leads to repentance and life, not fear or condemnation. Fill him afresh with Your presence and let him experience the comfort and guidance that only You can provide.
We also pray for his home. Lord, cleanse this dwelling of every ungodly presence. Let the blood of Jesus cover every corner, every room, and every memory tied to that place. We declare that this home belongs to You, and no weapon formed against him or his family shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17). Let Your angels encamp around them, and let Your peace reign in that place.
Finally, Lord, we pray for his heart. Heal the wounds of PTSD and replace his fear with Your perfect love, which casts out all fear (1 John 4:18). Restore his sleep, his mind, and his emotions. Let him find his identity in You alone, not in his trauma or his past. Give him a fresh vision for his future, one filled with hope, purpose, and the knowledge that You are with him always.
We thank You, Lord, for hearing our prayers. We trust in Your power to save, deliver, and restore. May he walk in the freedom and victory that Jesus purchased for him on the cross. Let him know beyond any doubt that he is loved, chosen, and redeemed by You. We ask all these things in the mighty and matchless name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.
Brother, we urge you to immerse yourself in the Word of God daily. Read Psalm 91 for protection, Psalm 23 for comfort, and Ephesians 6:10-18 to stand firm in spiritual warfare. Surround yourself with believers who can pray with you and hold you accountable. If you have not already, we strongly encourage you to seek out a pastor or biblical counselor who can walk with you through this season. You do not have to face this alone—the body of Christ is here to support you.
Lastly, if you have not fully surrendered your life to Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, we implore you to do so now. There is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12). Confess your sins, turn away from them, and place your faith in Jesus alone. He is the only One who can break every chain and give you eternal life. If you have already done this, then stand firm in your faith, knowing that the One who is in you is greater than he who is in the world (1 John 4:4).
We are praying for you and believe that the Lord will bring you through this valley into a place of victory and peace. Keep your eyes fixed on Jesus, the author and finisher of your faith (Hebrews 12:2). He will never leave you nor forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6).
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
