We come before the Lord with hearts full of gratitude that you have called upon the name of Jesus Christ, for there is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved. *"There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12, WEB). Your cry for help is heard, and we stand with you in intercession, knowing that the blood of Jesus is mighty to cleanse, redeem, and restore.
First, we rejoice that you are seeking freedom from the bondage of your past, for the Lord is faithful to deliver those who turn to Him in repentance. The sins you’ve confessed—drug abuse, deception, and even the dark thoughts of violence—are serious before God, but His mercy is greater. *"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."* (1 John 1:9, WEB). The enemy seeks to condemn you, but Christ has already paid the price for your sins on the cross. You are forgiven if you have repented, and now you must walk in that freedom.
However, we must address the request you made asking God to *"torture and kill"* those who are holding you accountable or persecuting you. This is not the heart of Christ, nor is it the spirit of one who has been transformed by His love. Jesus said, *"But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you"* (Matthew 5:44, WEB). Even in your pain, you are called to forgive as Christ forgave you. The anger and bitterness in your heart must be surrendered to Him, for *"the anger of man doesn’t produce the righteousness of God"* (James 1:20, WEB). If someone is persecuting you unjustly, trust that God is your vindicator. *"Don’t say, ‘I will pay back evil.’ Wait for Yahweh, and he will save you."* (Proverbs 20:22, WEB).
We also recognize the deep struggle you face with the consequences of your past actions, particularly the lies and deception surrounding your drug use. The guilt and shame you feel are real, but they are not from God—they are tools the enemy uses to keep you in bondage. *"Therefore there is now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus."* (Romans 8:1, WEB). You must renounce these lies and walk in the truth. If there are amends to be made, ask the Lord to give you the courage to make them in a way that honors Him. If there are relationships that need restoration, seek His wisdom on how to proceed. But do not let fear or pride keep you from doing what is right.
As for the person you want to *"completely get rid of"* because of their vexations, we urge you to release them to God. You cannot control their emotions or actions, but you can choose to respond in a way that reflects Christ. *"If it is possible, as much as it is up to you, be at peace with all men."* (Romans 12:18, WEB). If this person is truly toxic or dangerous, pray for wisdom on how to set godly boundaries, but do not harbor hatred or wishes of harm. Instead, pray for their salvation and for God to soften their heart. Remember, you were once lost in sin, and Christ showed you mercy—extend that same mercy to others.
Lastly, we must address the hold that cocaine and other sins have had on your life. Drug abuse is a form of idolatry—it becomes a false god that controls your thoughts, actions, and emotions. *"Don’t you know that the unrighteous will not inherit God’s Kingdom? Don’t be deceived. Neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor male prostitutes, nor homosexuals, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor slanderers, nor extortionists, will inherit God’s Kingdom."* (1 Corinthians 6:9-10, WEB). But the good news is that *"such were some of you, but you were washed. But you were sanctified. But you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus, and in the Spirit of our God."* (1 Corinthians 6:11, WEB). You are no longer a slave to sin if you are in Christ. If you have not already, we urge you to seek godly counsel, accountability, and possibly a Christ-centered recovery program to help you walk in lasting freedom. Surround yourself with believers who will encourage you and hold you accountable.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up our brother to You, knowing that You are the God of redemption and restoration. Lord, we thank You that he has called upon the name of Jesus, the only name by which we are saved. Father, we ask that You break every chain of addiction, guilt, and shame that has held him captive. Wash him clean by the blood of the Lamb and fill him with Your Holy Spirit, that he may walk in newness of life. Lord, we rebuke the spirit of deception and violence that has sought to take root in his heart. Replace it with Your peace, Your love, and Your truth.
Father, we ask that You heal the relationships that have been broken by his past actions. Give him the courage to make amends where necessary and the wisdom to set godly boundaries where needed. Lord, we pray for those who have hurt him or whom he feels have wronged him. Soften their hearts, Father, and if they do not know You, draw them to salvation. Help our brother to release bitterness and forgive as You have forgiven him.
Lord, we pray for complete deliverance from the grip of cocaine and any other stronghold in his life. Fill the void in his heart with Your presence, that he may no longer seek fulfillment in substances but in You alone. Surround him with godly brothers and sisters in Christ who will walk with him in this journey of freedom. Give him strength to resist temptation and the discernment to recognize the enemy’s lies.
Father, we declare that he is a new creation in Christ—old things have passed away, and all things have become new. (2 Corinthians 5:17, WEB). Let him walk in the fullness of this truth. Protect his mind from the enemy’s accusations and fill him with Your Word, that he may meditate on Your promises day and night.
We pray all these things in the mighty and matchless name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.