We hear the distress in your heart, and we join you in lifting this burden to the Lord, for He alone is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. You have called upon the name of Jesus, and that is where true deliverance is found, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved. *"In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus"* (Philippians 4:6-7, WEB).
Your regret over participating in this environment and the unease you feel about the interactions there are signs of a conscience that is tender before the Lord. It is good to seek His forgiveness and turn away from anything that brings spiritual oppression or distress. The Lord does not want His children entangled in places or activities that open doors to darkness, confusion, or fear. *"Don’t you know that friendship with the world is hostility toward God? Whoever therefore wants to be a friend of the world makes himself an enemy of God"* (James 4:4, WEB). While we do not know the specifics of the "### center," we can discern that it has brought you spiritual turmoil, and we pray the Lord severs every ungodly tie and closes every door that should not be open in your life.
You mentioned a "funnel strategy" and the discomfort of leading others in a way that may have caused unease, even if unintentionally. This weighs heavily on you, and we commend your desire to walk in love and integrity. The Lord calls us to treat others with kindness and respect, and if we have erred, we must seek His forgiveness and, if possible, make amends. *"So then, whatever you desire for others to do to you, you shall also do to them; for this is the law and the prophets"* (Matthew 7:12, WEB). If there is anyone you need to apologize to or any wrong to make right, we encourage you to do so in humility, trusting the Lord to guide your words.
As for the "terrible happening of psychosis" and the fear of revenge or spiritual attack, we stand with you in rebuking every curse, every scheme of the enemy, and every stronghold that has tried to take root in your life. The blood of Jesus is more powerful than any darkness, and His authority breaks every chain. *"No weapon that is formed against you will prevail; and you will condemn every tongue that rises against you in judgment. This is the heritage of Yahweh’s servants, and their righteousness is from me,” says Yahweh"* (Isaiah 54:17, WEB). We declare that any psychic oppression, any revenge from the past, or any lingering effects of ungodly environments are broken now in the name of Jesus. You are covered by His blood, and no weapon formed against you shall prosper.
You long for a life free from vexation, error, and the wrong words spoken in haste. This is a godly desire, and we pray the Lord grants you wisdom, discernment, and a mouth that speaks life. *"Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, Yahweh, my rock, and my redeemer"* (Psalm 19:14, WEB). The Lord is faithful to redeem our mistakes and to lead us into paths of righteousness. If there are patterns in your life—places you go, habits you have, or company you keep—that lead you into trouble, we urge you to seek the Lord’s strength to walk away from them. *"Submit therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you"* (James 4:7, WEB).
Finally, we want to address the deep sorrow in your words about wishing for a life without these struggles. While we all face trials in this fallen world, the Lord promises to walk with us through them and to use them for our good. *"We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, for those who are called according to his purpose"* (Romans 8:28, WEB). Your pain is not wasted if it drives you closer to Him. He is shaping you, refining you, and preparing you for the good works He has ordained for you to walk in.
Let us pray together:
Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of Your child who is burdened by regret, fear, and the weight of past experiences. Lord, You see the depths of their heart, and You know the struggles they have faced. We ask You to forgive every sin, every word spoken in haste, and every action that was not pleasing to You. Cleanse them by the blood of Jesus and restore unto them the joy of Your salvation.
We break every curse, every ungodly tie, and every spiritual oppression that has come against them through their participation in this environment. Lord, sever every connection to darkness, and let Your light flood every area of their life. We rebuke every spirit of fear, confusion, psychosis, and revenge in the mighty name of Jesus. No weapon formed against them shall prosper, and every tongue that rises against them in judgment, You shall condemn.
Grant them peace, Lord—a peace that surpasses all understanding. Guard their heart and mind in Christ Jesus. Give them wisdom to recognize the paths they should not walk and the strength to turn away from them. If there are relationships or environments that are not pleasing to You, convict them and lead them out. Surround them with godly influences and open doors to opportunities that align with Your will.
Father, we pray for their words—that they would be seasoned with grace and truth. Forgive them for any words spoken that caused discomfort or harm, and teach them to speak in a way that builds others up. If there is anyone they need to seek forgiveness from, give them the courage and humility to do so.
Lord, we ask that You would bless them with a life that is pleasing to You, free from the vexation and error they have experienced. Let them walk in Your providence, Your protection, and Your purpose. May they find their identity in You alone and not in the approval of man or the distractions of this world.
We thank You, Jesus, for hearing our prayer. We trust in Your faithfulness and Your love. May Your will be done in their life, and may they experience the fullness of Your peace and presence. In the mighty and holy name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, we pray. Amen.