We hear the deep pain and turmoil in your heart, and we are grieved by the suffering you have endured. First, we want to affirm that you have done the right thing by crying out to Jesus Christ, for there is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved, and through whom we can find true peace and deliverance. *"There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12, WEB). It is only through faith in Jesus Christ that we are reconciled to God, and it is in His name that we find refuge from the storms of this world.
Your experiences reflect a heart that has been wounded by betrayal, spiritual confusion, and the weight of past mistakes. We want to address several things with the truth and love of Scripture, for God’s Word is a lamp to our feet and a light to our path (Psalm 119:105). First, let us speak to the spiritual confusion you have expressed. The Holy Bible is not the source of your suffering—it is the living Word of God, *"sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the dividing of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and is able to discern the thoughts and intentions of the heart"* (Hebrews 4:12, WEB). The Bible does not "contaminate" the Holy Spirit; rather, it is the Holy Spirit who convicts, comforts, and guides us into all truth (John 16:13). If reading Scripture has brought conviction, it is because the Holy Spirit is at work in you, exposing areas that need repentance and surrender to God. This is not betrayal—it is the loving discipline of a Father who desires your holiness and wholeness.
You mentioned the Gospel of Luke and the idea that it caused covetousness in your mother, leading to financial loss. We must be careful not to blame Scripture for the choices people make. The Word of God reveals the human heart, but it does not force anyone to sin. *"But each one is tempted when he is drawn away by his own lusts and enticed. Then the lust, when it has conceived, bears sin. The sin, when it is full grown, produces death"* (James 1:14-15, WEB). Your mother’s actions, like all of ours, are her own responsibility before God. Financial loss is painful, but we must trust that God is sovereign even in our suffering. He allows trials not to destroy us but to refine us, that we may *"be found to the praise, honor, and glory of God"* (1 Peter 1:7).
You also expressed fear of religious revenge, whether from people in the church or spiritual forces tied to Hawaiian traditions. Let us be clear: if you have placed your faith in Jesus Christ, you are no longer under the power of any curse, spirit, or vengeful force. *"You are of God, little children, and have overcome them; because greater is he who is in you than he who is in the world"* (1 John 4:4, WEB). Jesus has *"disarmed the principalities and powers... having triumphed over them in it"* (Colossians 2:15, WEB). No spiritual entity—whether from Hawaiian traditions or any other source—has authority over a child of God. If you have repented of any involvement in theft or occult practices (even unknowingly), you are forgiven and cleansed by the blood of Jesus. *"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness"* (1 John 1:9, WEB). We encourage you to renounce any past sins or ties to ungodly spiritual influences, asking God to break their power in Jesus’ name.
As for the mistreatment you endured in high school, we acknowledge how deeply wounding it is to be ostracized or attacked, especially when you were already struggling with trauma. The Lord sees your pain, and He cares. *"The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit"* (Psalm 34:18, WEB). However, we must also caution you against harboring bitterness or desires for vengeance. You wrote that you hope the Lord will "slaughter" those responsible for your suffering. While your anger is understandable, Scripture commands us: *"Don’t say, ‘I will pay back evil.’ Wait for the Lord, and he will save you"* (Proverbs 20:22, WEB). Vengeance belongs to the Lord (Romans 12:19), and He will repay. Your role is to forgive, not because those who hurt you deserve it, but because Christ has forgiven you. *"Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you"* (Ephesians 4:32, WEB).
We also note your struggle with PTSD after the traumatic event in your home. This is a real and serious condition, and we encourage you to seek godly counsel and support. The body of Christ is meant to bear one another’s burdens (Galatians 6:2), and there is no shame in needing help to heal. Your plan to use savings for physical recovery and education is wise, but we urge you to prioritize your spiritual and emotional healing as well. *"Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be healthy, even as your soul prospers"* (3 John 1:2, WEB).
Finally, we must address your view of the church. You described "hollow people" who participate in church activities but haven’t read the Bible. While it is true that not all who attend church are genuine believers, the church is still the body of Christ, and we are called to love and serve one another. *"Let us consider how to provoke one another to love and good works, not abandoning our own assembling together, as the custom of some is, but exhorting one another; and so much the more, as you see the Day approaching"* (Hebrews 10:24-25, WEB). If you have been hurt by the church, we grieve with you, but we also encourage you not to abandon fellowship entirely. Seek a biblical, Christ-centered church where the Word is preached faithfully, and where you can grow alongside other believers.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up our brother to You, knowing that You are the God who sees his pain and hears his cries. Lord Jesus, You were *"a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief"* (Isaiah 53:3), and You understand the depths of his suffering. We ask that You would surround him with Your peace, which surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Break the power of any spiritual strongholds, fears, or lies that have taken root in his mind. If there are any ungodly ties or curses from his past, we renounce them now in Jesus’ name and declare that *"no weapon that is formed against [him] will prevail"* (Isaiah 54:17).
Father, heal the wounds of betrayal and trauma in his heart. Replace his anger and desire for vengeance with Your love and forgiveness. Help him to release bitterness and trust You to vindicate him in Your perfect timing. Restore what the enemy has stolen—his peace, his joy, and his hope. Provide for his financial needs and guide his steps as he seeks recovery and education. Give him wisdom to steward his resources well and to seek godly counsel.
Lord, we also pray for his relationship with Your Word. Renew his mind with the truth of Scripture, and help him to see the Bible not as a source of betrayal but as the very breath of God (2 Timothy 3:16), given to lead him into life and freedom. Holy Spirit, fill him afresh and lead him into all truth. Protect him from deception and draw him closer to Jesus.
Finally, Father, we ask that You would place godly believers in his life—people who will encourage him, pray with him, and walk alongside him in faith. If he has been hurt by the church, lead him to a body of believers who will reflect Your love and truth.
We pray all these things in the mighty and holy name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
