We hear the deep pain and frustration in your words, and we want to address this with both truth and compassion, for the heart of God is grieved by the bitterness and vengeance that have taken root in yours. First, we must lovingly but firmly rebuke the spirit of hatred, cursing, and retaliation that has risen within you. The Scriptures are clear: *"Beloved, don’t seek revenge yourselves, but give place to God’s wrath, for it is written, 'Vengeance belongs to me; I will repay, says the Lord.'" (Romans 12:19, WEB).* You have confessed your sins, and that is good—repentance is the first step—but now you must release these burdens to Christ and trust in His justice, not demand your own. The anger you carry is a heavy yoke, and Jesus invites you to cast it upon Him, for His yoke is easy and His burden is light (Matthew 11:30).
The words you have spoken—calling for cancer, death, and suffering upon others—are not aligned with the heart of Christ, who said, *"But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you"* (Matthew 5:44, WEB). This is not a suggestion; it is a commandment. The pain you feel is real, but the solution is not in cursing others; it is in surrendering to the Lord and allowing Him to heal your heart. *"Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, outcry, and slander be put away from you, with all malice. And be kind to one another, tender hearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you"* (Ephesians 4:31-32, WEB). You cannot move forward in peace while clinging to such bitterness. Forgiveness is not excusing their actions; it is freeing yourself from the chains of resentment.
You mention religious harassment from a video game, and we understand how deeply such experiences can wound the spirit. But we must ask: have you turned to Christ in this, or are you still looking to the game, to your own anger, or to the responses of others for validation? *"Don’t be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what is the good, well-pleasing, and perfect will of God"* (Romans 12:2, WEB). If this game or the memories of it are causing you to stumble, it may be time to walk away entirely and fill your mind with what is pure, lovely, and praiseworthy (Philippians 4:8). The Lord does not want you ensnared by such things. He wants you free.
As for your struggles with losing games, we gently remind you that your identity is not found in victory or defeat in a virtual world, but in Christ alone. *"For what does it profit a man to gain the whole world and forfeit his life?"* (Mark 8:36, WEB). If this game is feeding your frustration, pride, or anger, it is not serving you well. Seek the Lord first, and He will give you peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7).
You also mention financial lack and madness, and we want to speak life over these areas. The Lord knows your needs, and He is your Provider. *"Don’t be anxious, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ ‘What will we drink?’ or, ‘With what will we be clothed?’ ... For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God’s Kingdom and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well"* (Matthew 6:31-33, WEB). Trust in Him, not in your own understanding or in the curses you’ve spoken over others. Repent of these words, for they do not align with faith in God’s goodness.
Finally, you thank Jesus for peace, providence, and progress, and we rejoice that you acknowledge His sovereignty. But we must ask: do you truly believe He is enough? The anger and curses in your prayer suggest a heart that is still wrestling with surrender. Lay it all down before Him—every hurt, every fear, every desire for revenge. *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you will find rest for your souls"* (Matthew 11:28-29, WEB).
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we lift up this beloved soul to You, knowing that You see the depths of their pain and the weight of their anger. Lord, we ask that You break the chains of bitterness, vengeance, and unforgiveness that have bound them. Wash them clean with the blood of Jesus and fill them with Your Holy Spirit, that they may walk in love, peace, and forgiveness. Father, we rebuke the spirit of hatred and cursing that has taken root, and we declare that Your love and truth will prevail in their heart. Lord, if there are strongholds tied to this video game or past experiences, we ask that You demolish them by Your mighty power. Set them free from every ungodly attachment and renew their mind in Your Word.
We pray for healing over the wounds caused by harassment, by their own words, and by the enemy’s lies. Father, replace their anger with Your peace, their fear with Your faith, and their desire for revenge with a heart that trusts in Your justice. Provide for their financial needs, Lord, and deliver them from the madness that seeks to consume them. Let them find their identity in You alone, not in games, not in victories, but in the finished work of Christ on the cross.
We thank You, Lord, for Your mercy and grace. We declare that this beloved child of Yours will walk in freedom, in forgiveness, and in the fullness of Your love. May they seek first Your Kingdom and trust You in all things. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Savior and Redeemer, we pray. Amen.
Beloved, we urge you to meditate on these Scriptures and to seek the Lord in prayer and fasting. Ask Him to reveal any areas of unrepentant sin or unforgiveness in your heart. The path to peace begins with surrender. *"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness"* (1 John 1:9, WEB). Walk in this truth, and you will find the freedom you seek. The Lord is with you; do not fear. Trust in Him.
