We hear the deep distress and confusion in your words, and we are grieved by the spiritual torment you are experiencing. First, we praise God that you have called upon the name of Jesus Christ, for there is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved. *"There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12, WEB). Your closing acknowledgment of Jesus is evidence that the Holy Spirit is at work in you, drawing you to the truth despite the chaos of your thoughts. Hold fast to Him, for He is the anchor of your soul.
The anxieties you describe—fear of condemnation, distortions about the nature of men and women, the deception of false teachings, and the influence of spiritual forces—are not from God. *"For God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control"* (2 Timothy 1:7, WEB). What you are experiencing sounds like a barrage of lies from the enemy, designed to distort Scripture, create confusion, and lead you away from the simplicity and purity of devotion to Christ. Let us address these distortions with the truth of God’s Word and pray for your deliverance and clarity.
First, regarding baptism: If you were baptized in the name of Jesus Christ, then you were baptized biblically, for *"Peter said to them, ‘Repent and be baptized, every one of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit’"* (Acts 2:38, WEB). Baptism in Jesus’ name is not a condemnation but a declaration of your identification with His death, burial, and resurrection. If you have repented and placed your faith in Christ, you are *not* condemned. *"He who believes in him is not judged. He who doesn’t believe has been judged already, because he has not believed in the name of the one and only Son of God"* (John 3:18, WEB). Any voice accusing you of blasphemy is not the voice of the Holy Spirit, who convicts of sin but does not condemn those who are in Christ. *"There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus"* (Romans 8:1, WEB).
Next, the teaching that only 144,000 will enter heaven is a dangerous distortion of Scripture. This number appears in Revelation 7 and 14, but it refers specifically to a group of Jewish believers sealed during the Tribulation—not the total number of the saved. The Bible is clear that heaven will be filled with *"a great multitude, which no man could number, out of every nation and of all tribes, peoples, and languages"* (Revelation 7:9, WEB). Salvation is available to *all* who call upon the name of the Lord. *"Whoever will call on the name of the Lord will be saved"* (Romans 10:13, WEB). Reject this false teaching, for it contradicts the heart of the Gospel and the boundless grace of God.
Your thoughts about women becoming "God" after eating the fruit, the corruption of humanity, and the idea that women use "avatars" to deceive men are not grounded in Scripture. These ideas seem to stem from a mix of gnostic or mystical distortions and deep-seated bitterness or fear. The Bible teaches that *both* men and women are created in God’s image (Genesis 1:27) and that sin entered the world through *both* Adam and Eve (Romans 5:12). Women are not inherently more corrupt or divine than men—we are all fallen and in need of redemption. The Gospel restores what was broken in the Garden: *"There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free man, there is neither male nor female; for you are all one in Christ Jesus"* (Galatians 3:28, WEB). Bitterness or resentment toward women—or men—has no place in the heart of a believer. *"Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, outcry, and slander be put away from you, with all malice. And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you"* (Ephesians 4:31-32, WEB).
Your mention of Satan affecting "all sensory perception" suggests spiritual oppression. The devil is a liar and the father of lies (John 8:44), and he seeks to distort reality, twist Scripture, and fill minds with confusion. But greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world (1 John 4:4). You have authority in Christ to resist these lies. *"Be sober and self-controlled. Be watchful. Your adversary, the devil, walks around like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. Withstand him steadfast in your faith"* (1 Peter 5:8-9, WEB). If you feel overwhelmed by these thoughts, we urge you to seek godly counsel from a pastor or mature believer who can help you discern truth from deception.
Lastly, your fear of condemnation reveals a heart that longs for righteousness but is being tormented by accusation. Remember: *"If our hearts condemn us, God is greater than our hearts, and knows all things. Beloved, if our hearts don’t condemn us, we have boldness toward God"* (1 John 3:20-21, WEB). The blood of Jesus cleanses us from *all* sin (1 John 1:7). There is no sin too great for His grace, no confusion too deep for His truth, no oppression too strong for His power. You are not beyond His reach.
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother who is battling fierce spiritual attacks. Lord, we rebuke every lying spirit, every voice of accusation, and every distortion of Your Word that has taken root in his mind. We declare that *"no weapon that is formed against you will prevail; and you will condemn every tongue that rises against you in judgment. This is the heritage of Yahweh’s servants, and their righteousness is from me,"* says Yahweh (Isaiah 54:17, WEB).
Father, we ask You to flood his heart with the light of Your truth. Remove every stronghold of deception, every fearful imagination, and every twisted interpretation of Your Word. Renew his mind by the power of the Holy Spirit, and let him see himself as You see him: redeemed, forgiven, and seated with Christ in heavenly places. Break the power of every ungodly belief that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, and bring his thoughts into captivity to the obedience of Christ (2 Corinthians 10:5).
Lord Jesus, You are the Way, the Truth, and the Life. We ask You to reveal Yourself to him in a fresh and powerful way. Let him know beyond any doubt that he is *not* condemned, that his baptism in Your name is a seal of Your ownership over him, and that Your grace is sufficient for every sin, every fear, and every lie he has believed. Fill him with Your peace, which surpasses all understanding, and guard his heart and mind in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:7).
We pray for deliverance from any spiritual oppression. By the authority of Jesus’ name, we command every demonic influence to flee. Holy Spirit, fill the void with Your presence, Your comfort, and Your truth. Let him experience the joy of salvation and the freedom that comes from knowing You.
Father, we also ask for godly community to surround him—believers who can speak Your Word over him, pray with him, and help him stand firm in the faith. If there is bitterness, resentment, or unforgiveness in his heart, we ask You to uproot it and replace it with Your love and forgiveness.
Thank You, Lord, that You are faithful to complete the good work You have begun in him (Philippians 1:6). We trust You to bring clarity, healing, and restoration. May he walk in the confidence of Your love and the assurance of his salvation. We ask all this in the precious and powerful name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.
Brother, we urge you to immerse yourself in Scripture daily, especially the Gospels and the Epistles, to counter the lies with truth. Memorize verses that declare your identity in Christ, such as Romans 8:1, 1 John 3:1, and 2 Corinthians 5:17. If these thoughts persist, seek help from a biblically grounded pastor or counselor who can guide you through this battle. You are not alone—the body of Christ is here to stand with you. Cling to Jesus, for He is your victory. *"But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ"* (1 Corinthians 15:57, WEB).
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
