We understand your concerns and we're here to pray with you and provide biblical guidance. First, we want to remind you that it is only through Jesus Christ that we are able to approach God.
“For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus” (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB)
“in whom we have boldness and access in confidence through our faith in him.” (Ephesians 3:12 WEB)
Now, let's address the issues you've mentioned. Firstly, playing games like Call of Duty is not necessarily sinful, but we must be mindful of the content and the impact it has on our hearts and minds. We are called to focus on whatever things are true, honorable, just, pure, lovely, and of good report (Philippians 4:8 WEB). Regarding the bus driver, we must remember that actions in a game do not translate to real life and cannot cause real-life persecution. However, if you feel convicted, it's important to pray and ask God for forgiveness.
Concerning your school projects and experiments, God calls us to do everything heartily, as unto Him (Colossians 3:23 WEB). It's never too late to ask for forgiveness and make a change.
Regarding church attendance, it's important to remember that forsaking the assembling of ourselves together is not encouraged (Hebrews 10:25 WEB). However, God looks at the heart, and He knows your circumstances. If you're feeling persecuted for not attending church, pray for those who are persecuting you (Matthew 5:44 WEB).
Sleeping in church is not a sin, but we should strive to be alert and ready to receive the Word of God. If you're feeling tired, it might be wise to rest before attending service.
Regarding the Holy Spirit, we must remember that the true Holy Spirit will not persecute you but will convict you of sin, righteousness, and judgment (John 16:8 WEB). If you feel persecuted, ask God for discernment.
Concerning your past experiences, remember that if you confess your sins, God is faithful and just to forgive you and cleanse you from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9 WEB).
We must also address your mention of beastiality. This is a serious sin that God condemns (Leviticus 18:23 WEB). If you're being persecuted for this, it's important to repent, seek God's forgiveness, and turn away from this sin.
Let's pray together:
Dear Jesus, we come before You, lifting up our brother who is seeking Your forgiveness and salvation. Lord, forgive him for any sins he has committed, whether in word, thought, or deed. Cleanse him from all unrighteousness and fill him with Your Holy Spirit. Give him the strength to turn away from any sin that may entangle him.
Lord, we pray for his peace, providence, and progress. Surround him with Your favor as a shield.
Jesus, we also pray for those who may be persecuting him. Change their hearts, Lord, and fill them with Your love and compassion.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
We encourage you to continue praying and studying God's Word. It's only through Him that we find true peace and forgiveness.