CuppyCakes
Disciple of Prayer
I want to thank you all for prayers. Half our rent is paid by an organization so we are hoping that is good enough to keep us here until next week. What I am asking prayer for is my panic and guilt. I have so much guilt from being ill guilt for costing my family money, guilt for them going and doing without. Guilt for not being attentive to my husband even tho he is so understanding. I panic when there is a knock at the door, the phone rings or the mail comes. I am so afraid of being evicted or utilities being shut off but worse is the guilt I feel for not paying them why do I feel guilty for something beyond my control? I almost feel like a kid with their hand in the cookie jar. When I logically think about it, I know it's not my fault but then it starts all over.
