Ljfromsd
Prayer Partner
Lord, I am trying to be positive each day. I am trying to stay focused and faithful. Lord, as I take these first steps, I know that I am walking in faith. I do not know what you have planned for me, but I do know that you will not hurt, betray, or deceive. Lord, the devil was attacking so hard and I'm starting to understand why. I asked you for a husband, Lord, and my prayer was unanswered, and I know now why. You were not going to give me what I asked for out of season. You knew that in order for me to love a spouse, I first had to love you and myself. I had to become whole within myself, Lord. I spent so much time giving love because I didn't feel I deserved to receive it. I didn't care about myself and wasn't living my life being my best. Now, Lord, I'm trying, trying to overcome all the negative, self-loathing things the devil had me believing. Now I see a beautiful woman, a woman who deserves to be loved. Fasting has shown me a woman with courage and strength. I know that as I go through this transformation, I will be ready for the things I asked you for, Lord. I know that when you send my husband, I will be a woman prepared mentally, physically, and spiritually to be a good wife. Thank you, Lord, you knew that until I did these things I wasn't going to be able to receive what I asked for and would only be miserable. I was so unhappy accepting something I didn't because I thought it was the most I could hope for. Now I see how sad I was. Thank you, Jesus, for staying by my side throughout it all. I know now I am blessed because you ended my hurt. You stepped in, Lord, and you are ending my pain. You have renewed my spirit and though I may be lonely at times, I know that I'm not alone. Thank you, Jesus, for always being my savior and my protector. I surrender my life to you, Lord, and I will be patient, Lord, until you present my husband to me, Lord.
