Carol825
Servant of All
Wow! Y'all are amazing. Thank you so much for the prayers! Guess what?!?! I got the job! Hahaha! Thank You, sweet Lord! God is so great! I have been lifted out of the deepest darkness of depression back towards the light. Not only do I have this wonderful new job so I can catch up on bills and buy food for my family, and can now even possibly buy Christmas presents but I have started a book on depression and God as a catharsis to help myself and now a tool to help others. God is so great. I can be happy and successful and it's ok to be successful. One of my biggest fears is of success. I'm going to work through it and do it anyway. I want you to know that more than anything, these prayers from you guys helped me the most with my depression. The words you said about actually letting go and handing it over to God is what I needed to do. I was holding onto my fear for dear life. I was not giving it to him. I was hanging on to the worry and the anger and the uncertainty and so lacked faith. Once I made the decision to let go (which is super hard for me) and give it to him, it was an immediate release! After that, the depression started decreasing, my heart started to feel lighter (it had been so weighted down and heavy with all this stress) and POOF! I got the job! I will never forget this! Thank you all! And thank You, Jesus! And thank You, God! (hugs) I know now that God never turned his back on me. He was there every second. He was simply waiting for me to actually give it to him so he could do something with it. 
