Justbecause5
Humble Prayer Warrior
There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!
Dear prayer warriors, please pray for me. I keep having ups and downs. Seems like they are mainly downs.
In February 2019, my family and I moved to Alaska for a job. In August 2022, a contract was complete and it was time to move back to Texas. My wife and daughter had tickets to go overseas to visit family. My son and I went to Texas to start a new job and to set up our new home.
So I left Alaska, my wife, hard attorney, and went to court. The attorney argued that I had stole the children and cross state lines. There was no talk of the plane ticket to go overseas and the job ending. I was not there to defend myself. I was 5000 miles away, taking care of my sons and preparing for the school year.
And lease September, 2022, my wife was given permission to get the boys and she did so with a friend from church. They flew down to Texas and took the boys while I was teaching less than 30 feet away. It was one of the most painful days of my life.
Since my wife left me, I probably prayed for her 1 million times. I pleaded with God to take me back to Alaska. In the summer of 2024, God orchestrated a way for me to go back to Alaska. So, on August 19, 2024, I flew to Alaska with no place to live with no car to drive. I did have a job teaching school and coaching basketball. I was walking by faith and not by sight.
I am 99.9% sure, God providentially open the door for me to move back to Alaska. That reality often gives me hope when I think about the little details it just kind of happened that moved me towards that direction. It gives me a lot of strength when I think about it.
I was so convinced it was the hand of God that I was confident before my plane landed in Alaska, my wife would contact me with apologies and a place to stay. I was definitely wrong on that regard. I landed at 12:15 AM and I had no place to go. It was very depressing and sad. A lady on the plane, she and her husband took me to the shelter.
The next year was incredibly tough. I had lost jobs due to no fault of my own. I lived in the shelter 4.5 months almost died on December 29, 2024, when I got locked out of my van and -23°F. I live in the back of my van 28 nights lived in a roach infested basement for 4.5 months it’s like everything bad that could happen to happen to me. Believe I kept my faith in the midst of it all I kept my sanity by reading the psalms each month sometimes more than once.
I keep seeing the hand of God. I see his hand in nature and it gives me strength. I see moose when I have prayed for moose. I see the northern lights. I see the rain and I love the rain (Acts 14:17). I’ve seen little blessings that have inspired me to somehow keep on going.
While in HR limbo, waiting for my teaching job to start in Alaska, I started doing gig work. Little did I know, at the time, gig work would be the income source that would save me throughout the year of an own. I am so thankful for that form of work that has enabled me to survive here.
Dear friends - the last year has been so incredibly tough. I am surprised I’m still alive. I’ve endured so much pain and deep deep sadness. Somehow, I keep going. I don’t know how I’m not suicidal, but I have prayed frequently that God would just take me home to be with him. I’ve actually prayed many times that God would send Elijah’s chariot to pick me up.
I believe I could write a book about the last year. So so many ups and downs. Again, mainly downs. It seems that any time I got up just even a little bit. I would get squashed down again with something.
Most recently, it’s been my vehicle. Over the last three months I’ve had three blowouts. I replaced my tires twice with used tires. A few weeks ago I started having loud sounds in the front of my vehicle.
Out of nowhere, a mechanic appeared. He did some repairs and I paid him $220. I was convinced that God had sent him to help me. I can’t decide now if it’s true or not.
A few days ago, my car started having problems in the front end again. I could barely drive. Somehow, I was able to make it to the McDonald’s parking lot, but I could not go any further without the fear of damaging the vehicle but possibly beyond my ability to pay for it.
I left the vehicle there and took a Lyft. Amazingly enough, I had a credit on my account and my ride from there to my new apartment was free. Thank God!
However, either that night or the next night, someone put a pipe into my gas tank and stole all my gas, nearly $50 worth of gas. I could not believe it that someone would do that. I just can’t imagine someone getting up and deciding to go out and hurt someone like that.
I have been going back to my van the last day or two cleaning it up, hoping that McDonald’s does not tow it. God, please help me if I lose my van I will lose the only thing I have in this life. I am so exhausted, dear friends
In my study of the psalms, I have learned again again that God is the god that is fully aware of everything (Ps 139). There is nothing hidden from his sight. He knows exactly what’s going on in my life and the difficulties I’m facing. That reality gives me strength.
I know he holds my tears in a bottle. He must have a whole warehouse full of those bottles. I’m glad that he does that but God, I need your help. Please step up and help me. I say that with deep preference God I love you with all my heart, but I need your help
I don’t know what to do.
My only relief is when I sleep. If I dream, my depression increases, but if I do not dream, then I get rest. Somehow, I wake up and go work. I was able to secure a rental car, but it’s expensive. I don’t know how long I’ll be able to do this.
I come back to this prayer request site because I believe in prayer. I believe God loves for his servants to pray; it’s a sign of deep faith in God (Luke 18:1ff).
As I lay here in bed, it is 2:20 AM. It’s a holiday. I’m a veteran. It’s a day in which I would spend time with my family and going out to eat, etc.. I miss him so much.
I’m not sure how much more I can endure God. If you’re willing to take me, I’m ready to go. I’m just so exhausted from the pain. I can’t take much more.
Please, dear friends, pray for me.
I need wisdom
I need strength
I need help with deep sadness
I need a good, stable job
I need my family back
I don’t know what else to say, or how to say it. I know the spirit helps us in our prayers. Please spirit, help me in my prayers. Sometimes, I just feel like I’m not praying right my weight patiently for God to help me.
I’m waiting on God to step in. I want to see his presence. I want to feel his love. I want to see his power evident in my life.
I do see his power. But it seems like his power is only a little bit that helps me, but I need something to solve all the problems so I can get back on my feet and get back to being normal again.
I am not suicidal. I’m not I’m just in so much pain. I wish God would take me.
Yes, I love Jesus, with all my heart. I’ve been a Christian for a long time. I’ve served the Lord for most of my adult life.
Thank you for praying for me.
My wife has done some terrible things to me. I still love her. I hope that guy will work at her heart. To bring her to her penance stand prepared to love her like Jesus loves the church. I have always been a forgiving person. I stand prepared to forgive her and love her like nothing ever happened.
I need strength. The last few days I’ve had some type of cold and it’s put me down even further. God help me. God help me.
Dear prayer warriors, please pray for me. I keep having ups and downs. Seems like they are mainly downs.
In February 2019, my family and I moved to Alaska for a job. In August 2022, a contract was complete and it was time to move back to Texas. My wife and daughter had tickets to go overseas to visit family. My son and I went to Texas to start a new job and to set up our new home.
So I left Alaska, my wife, hard attorney, and went to court. The attorney argued that I had stole the children and cross state lines. There was no talk of the plane ticket to go overseas and the job ending. I was not there to defend myself. I was 5000 miles away, taking care of my sons and preparing for the school year.
And lease September, 2022, my wife was given permission to get the boys and she did so with a friend from church. They flew down to Texas and took the boys while I was teaching less than 30 feet away. It was one of the most painful days of my life.
Since my wife left me, I probably prayed for her 1 million times. I pleaded with God to take me back to Alaska. In the summer of 2024, God orchestrated a way for me to go back to Alaska. So, on August 19, 2024, I flew to Alaska with no place to live with no car to drive. I did have a job teaching school and coaching basketball. I was walking by faith and not by sight.
I am 99.9% sure, God providentially open the door for me to move back to Alaska. That reality often gives me hope when I think about the little details it just kind of happened that moved me towards that direction. It gives me a lot of strength when I think about it.
I was so convinced it was the hand of God that I was confident before my plane landed in Alaska, my wife would contact me with apologies and a place to stay. I was definitely wrong on that regard. I landed at 12:15 AM and I had no place to go. It was very depressing and sad. A lady on the plane, she and her husband took me to the shelter.
The next year was incredibly tough. I had lost jobs due to no fault of my own. I lived in the shelter 4.5 months almost died on December 29, 2024, when I got locked out of my van and -23°F. I live in the back of my van 28 nights lived in a roach infested basement for 4.5 months it’s like everything bad that could happen to happen to me. Believe I kept my faith in the midst of it all I kept my sanity by reading the psalms each month sometimes more than once.
I keep seeing the hand of God. I see his hand in nature and it gives me strength. I see moose when I have prayed for moose. I see the northern lights. I see the rain and I love the rain (Acts 14:17). I’ve seen little blessings that have inspired me to somehow keep on going.
While in HR limbo, waiting for my teaching job to start in Alaska, I started doing gig work. Little did I know, at the time, gig work would be the income source that would save me throughout the year of an own. I am so thankful for that form of work that has enabled me to survive here.
Dear friends - the last year has been so incredibly tough. I am surprised I’m still alive. I’ve endured so much pain and deep deep sadness. Somehow, I keep going. I don’t know how I’m not suicidal, but I have prayed frequently that God would just take me home to be with him. I’ve actually prayed many times that God would send Elijah’s chariot to pick me up.
I believe I could write a book about the last year. So so many ups and downs. Again, mainly downs. It seems that any time I got up just even a little bit. I would get squashed down again with something.
Most recently, it’s been my vehicle. Over the last three months I’ve had three blowouts. I replaced my tires twice with used tires. A few weeks ago I started having loud sounds in the front of my vehicle.
Out of nowhere, a mechanic appeared. He did some repairs and I paid him $220. I was convinced that God had sent him to help me. I can’t decide now if it’s true or not.
A few days ago, my car started having problems in the front end again. I could barely drive. Somehow, I was able to make it to the McDonald’s parking lot, but I could not go any further without the fear of damaging the vehicle but possibly beyond my ability to pay for it.
I left the vehicle there and took a Lyft. Amazingly enough, I had a credit on my account and my ride from there to my new apartment was free. Thank God!
However, either that night or the next night, someone put a pipe into my gas tank and stole all my gas, nearly $50 worth of gas. I could not believe it that someone would do that. I just can’t imagine someone getting up and deciding to go out and hurt someone like that.
I have been going back to my van the last day or two cleaning it up, hoping that McDonald’s does not tow it. God, please help me if I lose my van I will lose the only thing I have in this life. I am so exhausted, dear friends
In my study of the psalms, I have learned again again that God is the god that is fully aware of everything (Ps 139). There is nothing hidden from his sight. He knows exactly what’s going on in my life and the difficulties I’m facing. That reality gives me strength.
I know he holds my tears in a bottle. He must have a whole warehouse full of those bottles. I’m glad that he does that but God, I need your help. Please step up and help me. I say that with deep preference God I love you with all my heart, but I need your help
I don’t know what to do.
My only relief is when I sleep. If I dream, my depression increases, but if I do not dream, then I get rest. Somehow, I wake up and go work. I was able to secure a rental car, but it’s expensive. I don’t know how long I’ll be able to do this.
I come back to this prayer request site because I believe in prayer. I believe God loves for his servants to pray; it’s a sign of deep faith in God (Luke 18:1ff).
As I lay here in bed, it is 2:20 AM. It’s a holiday. I’m a veteran. It’s a day in which I would spend time with my family and going out to eat, etc.. I miss him so much.
I’m not sure how much more I can endure God. If you’re willing to take me, I’m ready to go. I’m just so exhausted from the pain. I can’t take much more.
Please, dear friends, pray for me.
I need wisdom
I need strength
I need help with deep sadness
I need a good, stable job
I need my family back
I don’t know what else to say, or how to say it. I know the spirit helps us in our prayers. Please spirit, help me in my prayers. Sometimes, I just feel like I’m not praying right my weight patiently for God to help me.
I’m waiting on God to step in. I want to see his presence. I want to feel his love. I want to see his power evident in my life.
I do see his power. But it seems like his power is only a little bit that helps me, but I need something to solve all the problems so I can get back on my feet and get back to being normal again.
I am not suicidal. I’m not I’m just in so much pain. I wish God would take me.
Yes, I love Jesus, with all my heart. I’ve been a Christian for a long time. I’ve served the Lord for most of my adult life.
Thank you for praying for me.
My wife has done some terrible things to me. I still love her. I hope that guy will work at her heart. To bring her to her penance stand prepared to love her like Jesus loves the church. I have always been a forgiving person. I stand prepared to forgive her and love her like nothing ever happened.
I need strength. The last few days I’ve had some type of cold and it’s put me down even further. God help me. God help me.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.