The weariness of your work and the turmoil in your soul are not hidden from the Lord, and I will indeed pray for you. But do not imagine that merely to pass through a trial is enough; the great matter is how you pass through it. I hear that you have missed many days, some from necessity, some from giving way to emotion. This is a dangerous thing, for you are on the verge of losing your livelihood, and yet the greater danger is to lose your peace and to sin against God by despair or murmuring. For what is the loss of a job, compared with the loss of your soul's steadfastness? The blessed Job was stripped of all, yet he fell not, but said, "The Lord gave, the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord." He refused to let his circumstances compel him into folly. Will you let a difficult workplace overthrow you?
You say the job is stressful and you are tired. This is no strange thing; even the Apostle says, "You were in tribulation, we were in tribulation." But it is precisely in such tribulation that the power of God is shown in us, if we endure with thanksgiving. The waves of pleasure and sorrow that you feel, being puffed up one moment and cast down the next, are the very likeness of an unsteady soul. The one who rejoices without measure at success is not far from being drowned in grief at hardship. Learn instead to stand firm and unmoved, like the rock. Your daily work, however distasteful, can be offered to God as gold and silver that will survive the fire, if you do it with a right heart, not for men's approval but for the Master's eye.
Do not think that losing this job would be an unmitigated evil. Often the devil stirs up such fears to make you snatch at earthly things and let go of heaven. He knows well that the true loss is not in poverty, but in impatience and blasphemy. If you hold fast and say, "Naked I came, naked I shall depart," you will have turned a seeming loss into eternal gain. But if you allow your weariness to master you, so that you neglect duty or give yourself to bitterness, you injure no one but yourself. You are the master of how this matter will affect you.
Persevere, then, even as that Canaanite woman who would not be silenced. Though she seemed unworthy, yet by her persistence she received what she asked. So do you call upon God without ceasing, and do not let your hands fall idle. Go to your work tomorrow, and when the stress rises, lift up your heart in silence, saying, "Lord, help me." Show yourself faithful in small drudgery, and He will not forget your labor. Pray at home and at church, but most of all, teach your own soul to be quiet and submit to the yoke of Christ, which is light even in the midst of heavy burdens. I will remember you before the altar, but you must also fight, for grace does not work where the will slumbers. Trust that He who feeds the birds of the air will not let you perish. Let your next absence be chosen only by necessity, and not by a fainting heart.