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OGOCHUKWU
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I have been married for 2 yrs, but haven't known peace. God blessed with a son nine months after my marriage, since then I have always heard voices speak without a face. Tried as much as I could to pray, I even went from church to church in search of deliverance.
I no longer understand my husband; he has added more sorrow to my life. Most nights I run away from my house because I don't feel comfortable with the environment. It got to a point when I started to think that he was a ritualist. Every time he forces me to have sex with him. He makes me understand that he has so many girlfriends and can sleep with my sister if he wishes. As I write, I'm in my parents' house. My mum feels I'm pretending because I refuse to follow her to a spirituality. Sometimes I ask if God is aware that I'm still alive. I think of death every day but I wonder what would happen to my children, who would take care of them, who would love them. Why did God give me the opportunity to have them when I can't take care of them. But who am I to question him.
I no longer understand my husband; he has added more sorrow to my life. Most nights I run away from my house because I don't feel comfortable with the environment. It got to a point when I started to think that he was a ritualist. Every time he forces me to have sex with him. He makes me understand that he has so many girlfriends and can sleep with my sister if he wishes. As I write, I'm in my parents' house. My mum feels I'm pretending because I refuse to follow her to a spirituality. Sometimes I ask if God is aware that I'm still alive. I think of death every day but I wonder what would happen to my children, who would take care of them, who would love them. Why did God give me the opportunity to have them when I can't take care of them. But who am I to question him.
