Here below is a good prayer I prayed for myself and I thought you would like too. God is with you and sad when you are sad.
He wants you to live and fulfill all the great plans he has for you. He wants you to accept his gift of grace and a choose a new life following him if you have not yet. (You can pray - God, I am a sinner. I need a savior. I thank you for Jesus' death on the cross to pay for my sins. I accept that gift. Now out of thankfulness, I turn from my sins (that you have paid for) and choose to follow you. When I make a mistake and sin again I will come to you and say I will turn from my sin again and need your help as you change me. I am a new baby christian and I know I will have to crawl before I walk. Thank you for your help to grow up spritually. In Jesus Name Amen) That is his number one priority to save you. Hang in there. I felt the same way when I was 13 and again at 30, but then I gave my life to Jesus at age 30 and he has blessed me and healed my heart more every day! Loving him was the best decision I ever made. Try attending a non-denominational church where you can meet other new believers at a biblestudy. You will be so happy you did.
Jesus,
I acknowledge you as my High Priest. You understand and sympathize with my weaknesses and this excruciating pain of rejection and inferiority that I have tried to bury. In Your name I approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that I may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need. Father, be merciful unto me and forgive my sins even as I forgive others. I cast down the wrong perceptions, self-talk and mindsets that have exalted themselves above the Word of God. In the name of Jesus, I thank you for your healing grace that dispels the feelings and thoughts of self-rejection that I have carried most of my life. I am tired of suffering because of the false accusations and demeaning actions of others, and the false accusations I have brought against myself.
Father, these feelings have been like a cancer in my soul, and I choose to replace self-destructive thoughts with your word, which is able to restore and save my soul. In the face of these feelings of rejection and inferiority I choose being extraordinary and “equal to†others. I choose being accepted, loved and highly favored of the Lord. Whom the Son has set free, is free indeed. I am free to choose being the true self that you created me to be. I believe and declare everything you say about me:
The Father loves me unconditionally (John 17:23).
I am blessed with all spiritual blessings in heavenly places in Christ (Eph. 1:3).
I am chosen by You, my Father (Eph. 1:4).
I am holy and without blame (Eph. 1:4).
In Jesus Name
AMEN!!!