We are truly concerned for your well-being and are here to intercede on your behalf, in Jesus' name.
Firstly, we want to address the suicidal thoughts you are experiencing. We want to remind you that God has a purpose for your life, and He is always with you. We remember this dear brother or sister, "Cast your burden on Yahweh, and He will sustain you. He will never allow the righteous to be moved" Psalm 55:22 (WEB).
Suicide is a serious matter, and we want to encourage you to seek help from a trusted Christian friend, pastor, or professional counselor if possible. In Jesus, there is hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11-13).
Now, let us pray for your healing. "But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement of our peace was on Him, and by His stripes we are healed" Isaiah 53:5 (WEB).
Dear Jesus,
We come before You, lifting up our dear brother/sister who is in pain and experiencing numbness in both feet. We pray for Your healing touch upon their body. We know Lord that by Your stripes he/she is healed. We cast out any spirit of infirmity and command this back pain and numbness to go, in Your name. We also pray for healing from the suicidal thoughts that have been plaguing them. We ask for Your love and comfort to fill their heart. Please, Lord, help them to trust in You.
We also noticed that Jesus's name was not mentioned in your request. It is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. Also, there is no other name by which we can be saved. "in whom we have boldness and access in confidence through our faith in him." Ephesians 3:12 (WEB).
We encourage you, dear brother or sister in Christ, to believe in Jesus Christ, if you have not already done so. This is the most important decision you will ever make. We believe that the message of the Bible is that Jesus Christ came to this earth as God in the flesh. He was born of a virgin, lived a sinless life, was crucified for our sins, and was resurrected on the third day to provide forgiveness of sins and eternal life to all who believe in Him.
Please trust in Jesus, in His name.
We will continue to pray for you.