Anonymous
Beloved of All
I need prayers because my spirit is down. I am filled with negative emotions. I have had migraine headaches for over a week now. Can't eat or drink because I am depressed. I met a man back in July and told him I was on a mission to find my husband and that he had to have a relationship with God. And he said he did. We exchanged numerous laughs and then numbers. Well, we ended up talking a lot and went out on a few dates and then one day he was bringing me home and his wife, yes, you heard me, wife (I had no clue), pulls up behind me and approaches me and said what are you doing with my husband. He never wore a ring, always had time for me. I was defeated... However, I stayed by him because I felt love. I was happy. That was in October. Now we in December and I still haven't let him go. However, I now know it's wrong and it's against God's will, but I try and break it off but end up going back to him. We have separated for four days. Meanwhile, I am a single mom of four, and my kids have disabilities and don't really talk. Their dad doesn't do much for them, and we have a pretty much nonexistent relationship. Loads of jealousy and strife until Sunday night. I went to get my kids and ended up asking dad to come in, and he did, and we kissed. I feel so weighed down. I need prayers. Am I making these decisions because I am lonely? How do I get rid of the love feeling from the married man... I know if you follow Jesus 100%, I wouldn't be lonely. I need prayers for doors to close immediately and for others to open. I need prayers to be strong mentally and physically for my children. I need Jesus in my life. I don't pray like I used to or even talk with God throughout the day like I used to. I am falling apart, and it's killing me... I need prayers that my heart heals. I need prayers for my kids' autistic behavior and guide me with strength. I beckon the Holy Spirit to fill my soul with peace and love. I ask that the devil flee from me. The flesh is not stronger than my God. I need my mind renewed. In Jesus' name, I pray... Amen.

