anonymous4742
Servant of All
Stressing really badly, panic attack over the bills so I opened my Bible to read. Lead to Amos chapter 7. Anybody have a clue what this means. I am totally lost. Still in tears terrified my lights will be cut off on Friday (in 2 days) because I don't have $###.## to pay the past 2 payments. Our house isn't insulated properly and we don't have the funds for it either. Also need money to pay husband's child support from last month so he doesn't go to jail, collateral loan payments that's 2 months behind-- got notice of intent to take the collateral if not paid by Friday and all the other bills that are behind.
I have no where to turn. God, is your will for me to always be constantly stressed out and paying the price for other people's actions? Do I not deserve happiness, financial freedom, love? Still searching for all three. Will any of my hopes and dreams I have had in my life or will have EVER come to fruition? I have no peace. Where do I turn?
Am I trying to get caught up and out of debt for nothing since every effort I make is shot down? Your word says pray without ceasing and I have and am. But no peace or happiness or freedom.
Please grant me my settlements as I call them. Many will be comforted and blessed. I will be at peace and happy. My marriage will improve. My life will be so much better. Lord, do you not want this for me? Do you not want these things for me and my family? I have done everything humanly possible only you can make these things happen.
Only a miracle can make money appear to pay our bills. Only you can make what I call my settlements happen. Only you can improve my marriage. Only you can make my youngest son see the lies his grandparents have told him his entire life. These things will bring me happiness and peace.
I have no where to turn. God, is your will for me to always be constantly stressed out and paying the price for other people's actions? Do I not deserve happiness, financial freedom, love? Still searching for all three. Will any of my hopes and dreams I have had in my life or will have EVER come to fruition? I have no peace. Where do I turn?
Am I trying to get caught up and out of debt for nothing since every effort I make is shot down? Your word says pray without ceasing and I have and am. But no peace or happiness or freedom.
Please grant me my settlements as I call them. Many will be comforted and blessed. I will be at peace and happy. My marriage will improve. My life will be so much better. Lord, do you not want this for me? Do you not want these things for me and my family? I have done everything humanly possible only you can make these things happen.
Only a miracle can make money appear to pay our bills. Only you can make what I call my settlements happen. Only you can improve my marriage. Only you can make my youngest son see the lies his grandparents have told him his entire life. These things will bring me happiness and peace.
