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tessa
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Like much of America, my husband and I are in over our heads financially. We have been struggling for 20 years. SO long, that I can't remember what it's like to not struggle. Our children are getting older, getting ready to graduate high school. All I can think about is all the things I couldn't give them. Id never wanted them to grow up like I did, in a run down home always wanting for something and yet, here we are. I have reached the end of my rope. My mother once ran away, and I always wondered how she could have done that, but now I understand. I just can't take this anymore. We work full time and take any and all overtime we can get but it's never enough. The house keeps falling down, the bill collectors keep calling and the kids need more and more. All this time we told ourselves that at least we love each other. We have that. But now this mountain of debt is finally breaking us. We say mean hateful things to each other. We make threats. Our home is now an angry place. Our children are angry and insecure.
I'm not sure even what I'm praying for. Surely a solution to our financial burden. Strength to carry on this fight. The wisdom and patience to comfort and inspire my children. A renewal of the love, respect and determination my husband and I used to have. Help. Just help. Dear God, please help us to finally be free of this mess. Help me to be the kind of mother my children deserve. Guide us Lord so that we may find the right path. Amen.
I'm not sure even what I'm praying for. Surely a solution to our financial burden. Strength to carry on this fight. The wisdom and patience to comfort and inspire my children. A renewal of the love, respect and determination my husband and I used to have. Help. Just help. Dear God, please help us to finally be free of this mess. Help me to be the kind of mother my children deserve. Guide us Lord so that we may find the right path. Amen.