Anonymous
Beloved of All
I moved away from my hometown multiple times each time finding a better life and purpose. I would then start to miss my family and where I grew up and would convince myself it was safe to return ‘home’. Each time resulted in the same outcome - abandonment, isolation, abuse, poverty and just total hopelessness.
Instead of trusting God for guidance in a moment of weakness I trusted my mother. She convinced me to return home and promised me I would not be stranded as home is in a rural place and that I would be able to work in the house and have a vehicle. Within a week they sell the vehicle and construction crews show up to work everyday for a year. I lose my job bc I have nowhere to work at home, my health starts to decline bc I have no way to get to the doctor and no way to get food or even leave the house. I’m forced into a position of dependency, dependent on people totally indifferent to me. They stranded me in this house without access to people, places or things. They then abuse me for being in the situation I am in and blame me for everything.
I am now stranded out in the country living in my rich godless parents beautiful but cold and empty house. It’s an impossible situation and I don’t know how to get out of it. I can’t have guest, I can’t go anywhere and idk how to even help myself anymore. I have been essentially a prisoner, emotionally and spiritually beaten and I often think of giving up. I feel deceived, manipulated and I am filled with anger and resentment that I wish not carry.
I am at a point where only God can save me. The people I trusted as my family I realize now likely enjoy watching me suffer, struggle and take pleasure in the abuse. I made a horrible mistake getting trapped and I worry I will die here. I am able to work but how do I work when I can’t even leave the property ? They will not help me. I think they like keeping me as a prisoner / house pet and I am genuinely terrified. Their willpower seems to override my own and I need a miracle to be released from this prison. I just need a chance. I am too young to die alone.
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Instead of trusting God for guidance in a moment of weakness I trusted my mother. She convinced me to return home and promised me I would not be stranded as home is in a rural place and that I would be able to work in the house and have a vehicle. Within a week they sell the vehicle and construction crews show up to work everyday for a year. I lose my job bc I have nowhere to work at home, my health starts to decline bc I have no way to get to the doctor and no way to get food or even leave the house. I’m forced into a position of dependency, dependent on people totally indifferent to me. They stranded me in this house without access to people, places or things. They then abuse me for being in the situation I am in and blame me for everything.
I am now stranded out in the country living in my rich godless parents beautiful but cold and empty house. It’s an impossible situation and I don’t know how to get out of it. I can’t have guest, I can’t go anywhere and idk how to even help myself anymore. I have been essentially a prisoner, emotionally and spiritually beaten and I often think of giving up. I feel deceived, manipulated and I am filled with anger and resentment that I wish not carry.
I am at a point where only God can save me. The people I trusted as my family I realize now likely enjoy watching me suffer, struggle and take pleasure in the abuse. I made a horrible mistake getting trapped and I worry I will die here. I am able to work but how do I work when I can’t even leave the property ? They will not help me. I think they like keeping me as a prisoner / house pet and I am genuinely terrified. Their willpower seems to override my own and I need a miracle to be released from this prison. I just need a chance. I am too young to die alone.
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Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.