Still Feeling Alone, And Suciscidal.

[Hungry4love357]

God why is it so hard for me to trust You with my anxieties?  I want someone special in my life so bad.  How many times must I cry myself to sleep.  When are You going to step in God?  I have numerous times surrendered this to You, and yet you have not answered me?  God I cannot find a helpmate on my own, You know that.  It would be impossible for me to so much as get a girl to even look at me without You.  What the worldly women want I don't have, and what the Godly women want you have already given them.  God I cannot keep doing this.  You know how anxious I am.  You know because of my Autism that I don't have the social skills necessary to talk women.  You know the desires of my heart.  God you are my only hope.  Your the only one that can make this Mountain before me fall.  You know how I feel right now God.  I'm sick of trying g to be the good Man everyone tells me I have to be in order to be a mate.  I've tried to be perfect.  I have tried to read your word whole heatedly, and I have tried to be pure sexually, though your standers, and yet for all my faith and trying to keep your word I have failed and continue to fail.  If I'm redeemed and I am covered in your blood then why can I not get close to You.  I was told to get closer to you I should read my Bible daily, but even when I gave You quiet time, and tried to give You myself, I feel like I'm not heard because You reject me.  I thought your grace was free for all who excepted it, and I have excepted it, yet you will not bless me whit my request.  I feel so isolated and alone.  I'm confused God.  I love you, but anytime I ask You for anything you never answer me.  I asked you to show me what the purpose of my life was and I still don't have an answer.  I asked for a Godly women to come into my life, and she's still not here.  God, am I that hopeless.  I don't understand why you wired me to where all I want to do is give the love you filled me with and  won't give me a proper outlet for it.  I want a help mate to love so bad that it hurts.  What do I have to do?  What am I doing wrong?  Please answer me?   The only thing worse than not finding her is not knowing weather or not you are going to tell me what I have to do to prepare myself for the rain.  God just please, Speak to me in a way I can understand for once.  Please.  God If your not going to show me your purpose for my life and I can't carry it out, then why am I here?  Please God.  In the name of Your Son and my Savior, Jesus Christ name I pray, Amen?

I really need God to Manifest himself somehow?  I was so depressed the last night I got drunk for the very first time trying to drown out how miserable I was.  I knew alcohol was not a good choice but I tend to get a bit impulsive when I'm this upset?  Please pray for me.  I know I sound selfish but I just need a lot of love right now.  I'm so deep in my depression right now that I feel trapped.  I'm having trouble sleeping at night, and when I do finally cry myself asleep I wake up tired and emotionally drained which does not help me much in school.  Please pray for me.

 

[ehl]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Eve555]

I'm praying for you right now.  Please know that there is a reason behind everything weather you believe in God or not and you are not alone in your feelings.  Autism is hard because it effects  your communication and social skills along with your behavior (weather you like it or not), I know because I have a daughter with Autism and it isn't easy for her either.  But know that there are people out there who love you and who don't want you to fail or to be a "better Man", you are perfect they way you are. I'm glad you are turning to God for help, he will help when the time is right. Stay calm and concentrate on something else for now, how about a pet like a dog? Don't work so hard to attract a woman she will find you if you be yourself and stay calm Also try to find support groups for Autism in your area. I pray that all will be good in your life.

 

[DoveConnection]

[SIZE=11pt]Aaron357, [/SIZE]

[SIZE=11pt]Unfortunately, we all have problems and we go through low moments in life. [/SIZE]

[SIZE=11pt]As I read your prayer request, I was moved to ask you to please be encouraged by one of the most inspirational persons God has placed on earth. [/SIZE]

[SIZE=11pt] Please look up Nick Vujicic on the web and/or youtube[/SIZE]

[SIZE=12pt]and see how he inspires people around the world. May he be a source of inspiration to you at this time. And I pray that God will continue to strengthen you and help you with your ailment.[/SIZE]

[SIZE=12pt]The Lord's Prayer [/SIZE]

[SIZE=12pt]King James Version (KJV) [/SIZE]

[SIZE=12pt]These are the words from the Lord's prayer in Matthew 6:9-13, taken from the King James Bible (Authorized version of the scriptures):-[/SIZE]

[SIZE=12pt]9 Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name.[/SIZE]

[SIZE=12pt] 10 Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven.[/SIZE]

[SIZE=12pt] 11 Give us this day our daily bread.[/SIZE]

[SIZE=12pt] 12 And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors.[/SIZE]

[SIZE=12pt] 13 And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen.[/SIZE]

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[SIZE=12pt]In Jesus' name I pray this prayer for all your people Lord and continue to bless Nick Vujicic and may he continue to do your work Lord. Amen.[/SIZE]

 

[Keety]

Lord God,

I ask for Your mercy in this situation. You can see what we cannot see. I ask that Your will be done. I ask that we will trust in Your goodness and faithfulness and know in the depths of our hearts that all things work together for good for those who are called by Your name. I ask that we would draw close to You and know Your heart. I ask that You fill us with a greater portion of Your Holy Spirit and enable us to have a deeper trust in You. Bless You, oh Lord.

I ask this in Jesus name. Amen.

 

[sharonjoan]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[hisfaceiseek]

Father God, please minister to this saint right now. Lord God please guard his thought stream and reveal your truth.  Father this burden is too heavy; carry it for him Lord Jesus. Father please grant this saint peace of mind, surround him with a hedge of protection for all speculations that come against the knowledge of Jesus. Father we rebuke the despair and loneliness, it did not come from you Lord. Have mercy Lord. In Jesus name, Amen 

 

[The Encourager]

Child of God, in Jesus’ name I pray that God always bless you with the desires of your heart that is His will. Wait in faith on God to answer your prayers. Stay prayerful and thankful unto the Lord. God Is In Control. <><><> Click on the link (Prayer of Protection) https://www.prayerrequest.com/blog/183/entry-17535-prayer-of-protection/ <><><> Your Relationship With God: https://www.prayerrequest.com/blog/183/entry-17664-somebody-somewhere-is-praying-for-your-relationship-with-god/

 

[dcrandjr]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

May God hear and bless all of your prayers and needs!