Namelesservant
Humble Servant of All
Something really odd and unexpected happened today. The woman, who ghosted about a year ago, suddenly appeared on my doorstep. She just wanted to say hi and to speak. I had not much to say and told her that I don't hold a grudge. Things went as they went. I also said I was sorry for my own behavior. I did not ask her in and chatted with her for a while. She tried to start a conversation on several topics... She seemed uncertain but visibly happy of seeing me. She clearly would have liked to chat more and spend time with me. For now, I just chatted for a while and kept most of my thoughts to myself. I have learned it's sometimes better to tell less than one observes.
Anyway, seeing her made me float and feel instantly happy. I smiled and my eyes brightened when seeing her. Just chatting with her made me feel comfortable and good. Again, despite of her actions towards me.
I did not say to her straight but between the lines I gave her an impression that she is welcome to my life but not as mere friend anymore. I made no move to ask her in or to keep contact. If she really wants me to be part of her life, she will contact me again. Now this is on hands of God and ball is on her end.
Will I see her again. Perhaps, perhaps not. That is up to God. But I won't make any moves from my part, letting this whole matter to rest in the hands of the Lord.
Lord Father, I know you know this whole matter throughoutly and I give it up to you. If it is good in your eyes and according to your will then lead me into marriage with her. If not then let my emotions for her fade. If you lead us together then grow me to be a husband after your own heart, God. You know my heart in this matter. If it aligns with your will then do your miracles here. If not then steer me back to your way and will in this matter, Lord. In Jesus' name I pray, amen.
Anyway, seeing her made me float and feel instantly happy. I smiled and my eyes brightened when seeing her. Just chatting with her made me feel comfortable and good. Again, despite of her actions towards me.
I did not say to her straight but between the lines I gave her an impression that she is welcome to my life but not as mere friend anymore. I made no move to ask her in or to keep contact. If she really wants me to be part of her life, she will contact me again. Now this is on hands of God and ball is on her end.
Will I see her again. Perhaps, perhaps not. That is up to God. But I won't make any moves from my part, letting this whole matter to rest in the hands of the Lord.
Lord Father, I know you know this whole matter throughoutly and I give it up to you. If it is good in your eyes and according to your will then lead me into marriage with her. If not then let my emotions for her fade. If you lead us together then grow me to be a husband after your own heart, God. You know my heart in this matter. If it aligns with your will then do your miracles here. If not then steer me back to your way and will in this matter, Lord. In Jesus' name I pray, amen.
