Ysorus
Disciple of Prayer
Idk what to do anymore. I never had intrusive thoughts bother me as much as they have been for the last 2 months. Every day last month I started feeling better because I created a new routine with the way I spend time with Jesus and I’ve read my Bible more than I have within the last few years. Then this morning I woke up immediately thinking about an intrusive thought against my will. I literally just had a great and busy weekend and then once things slowed down, BOOM! I don’t believe the thoughts and I know where some stem from but I literally don’t know what to do anymore. I was getting closer with the Lord but this morning I just want to give up on everything I’ve been doing. I don’t know why the specific keeps haunting me. I always had intrusive thoughts growing up but now some bother me wayyy more than others. Specifically ones about death. I don’t know how to shake it or help myself. I’ve been doing everything and trying to learn from the season I’m in, which I have but I want to give up so bad now. I’ve been dealing with this for forever and I just feel so broken. I’m so lost, burnt out, and just sad. I cried yesterday knowing I was going back to my normal life after my birthday weekend because the thoughts just haunt me out of nowhere sometimes and I’m tired of fighting. I really need and would love for people to pray for me because I don’t know what to say anymore.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.