missnan67
Servant of All
I just want to thank every one that has taken time out to pray for me.. I have been so confused about alot of things ... Lord please for give me for the things i do wrong... I know i should lean more on jesus myself and i do but sometimes i feel my prayers are un heard.. So i ask for you all to pray for me... My life is so mess up and im trying to do the best... I have never been alone from the time i left home when i was 18 i have always had some one with me... Im alone biggest part of the time and i dont like being alone... Some times i feel like im being punish for all the things i have done wrong.. I have been praying for my boyfriend for a long time. I told last night it was over. But he is still some what in my life. All i want is to have some one good in my life.. I had some one so good in my life but i only had him for a year and he died of lung cancer.. He told me before he took his last breath he loved me.. He made a recording thanking me for caring for him and never for get the memories we shared i got to see him get saved a week before he died... He has been gone 7 years this year.. It has been so hard.. I have gotten in drugs after this happen runnin to this man that man but we have a meriful god and he for gave me of all that i should had been dead for what i did some did die that used the same drug as me but god held me tight and kep me safe. And im back with the lord.. The guy date he is a good man in general. He has a drinking problem and since i started church he is not around me much.. He ask me why i didnt go to church sunday he seem very concern. But he dont ask me to come to visit him he always comes here to my house i just wish he would start seeing how he is hurting me and if he really dont to be with me i pray he would just stay away from me... Because i get so tormented over this.. We have been dating for 3 years now. He lost his wife in a house fire. And my lost i had we could relate to it and thats how we started being friends. Plus he was there at the end of me tryin to get away from the drugs.. He help me out alot but i give my praise to jesus.. He kep after me to go to church for 3 years now and i finally made that move on my own and now he is wondering why i did it but he knows deep down he has been a christian.. I just pray he will come back to church get right with jesus and we could live for the lord together... I love him so much.. I wish he would show he loves and cares for me and spend more time with me i pray lord please take all evil ones out of his life lord i pray you pour conviction upon the ones there around him and him also. Send christain people to him and the ones there around him. Please pray for him and me too thank you and god bless you all
