We hear the deep pain and frustration in your words, and our hearts ache for the struggle you are experiencing. It is clear that you feel let down, perhaps even betrayed, by the silence you’ve encountered in prayer. But before you turn away completely, we must gently yet firmly address some misunderstandings in your perspective, for they are leading you down a dangerous path—one that distances you not just from the church or the Bible, but from the very source of truth, hope, and salvation.
First, let us speak plainly about the name of Jesus Christ. You mention Him, but your words suggest a growing resentment toward Him, as if He has failed you. Yet Scripture makes it abundantly clear that there is no other name by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12). Jesus Himself said, *"I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me"* (John 14:6). To reject Him is to reject the only path to reconciliation with God. This is not a matter of opinion or personal preference—it is the foundation of our faith. If you are testing God, as you say, then know that He has already proven Himself beyond measure. He sent His Son to die for your sins while you were still a sinner (Romans 5:8). What greater test could there be than the cross?
You say you no longer wish to wait for God’s will, as if His timing is something to be manipulated or dismissed. But Scripture warns us about the dangers of impatience and unbelief. *"The one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord"* (James 1:6-7). Waiting on God is not passive—it is an act of faith. It is trusting that His plans for you are good, even when they do not align with your desires or timeline (Jeremiah 29:11). To walk away in frustration is to risk missing the very thing God is preparing for you. His silence does not mean He is absent. Often, it means He is working in ways you cannot yet see.
You also speak of testing God in return, as if this is a transactional relationship where you can bargain with Him. But God is not a vending machine where we insert prayers and expect immediate results. He is the sovereign Creator of the universe, and His ways are higher than our ways (Isaiah 55:8-9). To test Him is to presume upon His grace, and Scripture warns against this. In Malachi 3:15, the people said, *"It is futile to serve God. What did we gain by carrying out his requirements?"* But God’s response was clear: those who feared Him and honored His name would see the distinction between the righteous and the wicked. Testing God is not an act of faith—it is an act of pride.
Now, let us address the most concerning part of your message: your growing disdain for the church, the Bible, and prayer. You call them "fake," but this is a lie from the enemy, who seeks to isolate you from the truth. The Bible is the living Word of God (Hebrews 4:12), and to reject it is to reject the very breath of God that gives life. The church, though imperfect, is the body of Christ (1 Corinthians 12:27), and to turn away from it is to cut yourself off from the fellowship and accountability that God designed for your growth. Prayer is not a meaningless ritual—it is communion with the Almighty, a privilege purchased for you by the blood of Christ. To dismiss these things is to walk away from the very things that can sustain you in your pain.
We must also rebuke the spirit of bitterness that is taking root in your heart. Hebrews 12:15 warns, *"See to it that no one falls short of the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many."* Bitterness is a poison that will only deepen your despair. It will blind you to the ways God is still moving in your life and harden your heart to the truth. We urge you to repent of this bitterness and ask God to soften your heart. He is faithful to forgive and restore (1 John 1:9).
Let us pray for you now, not as those who have it all together, but as fellow sinners saved by grace, who have also known the weight of unanswered prayers and the temptation to walk away.
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up our brother who is struggling with doubt, frustration, and anger. Lord, we know that You are good, even when life does not feel good. We know that You are near, even when You feel distant. We ask that You would break through the hardness of his heart and remind him of Your unfailing love. Father, Your Word says that You are a God who hears the cries of Your children (Psalm 34:17). We pray that You would make Your presence known to him in a tangible way. Help him to see that Your silence is not absence, and that Your delays are not denials.
Lord, we ask that You would forgive him for the bitterness and resentment that has taken root. Cleanse his heart and renew his mind (Romans 12:2). Help him to surrender his timeline to Yours, trusting that You know what is best for him. We pray against the lies of the enemy, who seeks to deceive him into believing that You are not real, that Your Word is not true, and that the church is not Your body. Remind him of the truth: that You are the way, the truth, and the life (John 14:6), and that apart from You, there is no hope.
Father, we ask that You would restore his faith. Give him a hunger for Your Word and a desire to seek You in prayer. Surround him with believers who will encourage him and walk alongside him in this season. Lord, we know that You are able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine (Ephesians 3:20). We trust that You are working in his life, even now. Help him to wait on You with hope, knowing that those who hope in You will not be put to shame (Isaiah 49:23).
We pray all of this in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, the One who died for his sins and rose again so that he might have eternal life. May he come to know the power of Your resurrection and the hope of Your calling. Amen.
Friend, we understand that this is a difficult season for you, but we urge you not to make permanent decisions based on temporary feelings. The pain you are experiencing is real, but so is the hope that is found in Christ. We encourage you to press into Him, even when it feels impossible. Read the Psalms—David knew what it was like to feel abandoned by God, yet he always returned to the truth of God’s faithfulness. Cry out to Him in your anger, your confusion, and your doubt. He can handle it. But do not walk away. Do not let the enemy steal your faith.
If you are willing, we would also encourage you to seek out a biblical church or a trusted Christian friend who can walk with you through this season. Isolation is not God’s design for His children. You do not have to carry this burden alone.
Lastly, remember that God’s love for you is not based on your performance or your feelings. It is based on the finished work of Jesus Christ on the cross. He loves you with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3), and nothing can separate you from that love (Romans 8:38-39). Even in your doubt, He is pursuing you. Do not turn away from Him. Turn to Him, even if it is with clenched fists and a broken heart. He is waiting to meet you there.
