Anonymous
Beloved of All
Why is this so hard, I can't find a helpmate, God has not given me a help mate and stuggle with strong sexual desires. I am addicted to open because I can't have real intercorse without a wife, but God won't give me a wife, and I want a wife, not just for sex but for close friendship, and live, but I am twisted because of porn. I want to have sex within marriage so it is pleasing to God, but I cant get a wife. This is too much for me. So many things are keeping me from marriage, the true desire of my heart, but my flesh is in the way, my addiction is in the way, the devil is in my way, and I am at a loss. I hate my self right now. I am not worthy of a wife, or love it anything close. Please forgive me God.
