Anonymous
Beloved of All
Hi everyone,
5 months ago I discovered I had a superficial faith- intellectual but not trusting. Backslidden at best, not living for the Lord for 10 years. I’m age ###. I’ve been terrified ever since. Was a worship leader for the past 6 years, stepped down a year ago.
I’ve been riddled with doubts for the first time and effectively rebelling against the scripture.. it feels like against my will. I just want to stop this and believe into salvation. It seems to circle mostly around His resurrection.
I’m praying all the time and reading.
I’m completely terrified of eternal judgment. I want to love Him and have a personal relationship with Him.
I know this is all muddy and confusing.. which I also am. Please pray that my heart and mind are opened to Him, that I finally trust and surrender to Him. I don’t think we have lots of time left here.
Thank you so much, I’m desperate for prayer.
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5 months ago I discovered I had a superficial faith- intellectual but not trusting. Backslidden at best, not living for the Lord for 10 years. I’m age ###. I’ve been terrified ever since. Was a worship leader for the past 6 years, stepped down a year ago.
I’ve been riddled with doubts for the first time and effectively rebelling against the scripture.. it feels like against my will. I just want to stop this and believe into salvation. It seems to circle mostly around His resurrection.
I’m praying all the time and reading.
I’m completely terrified of eternal judgment. I want to love Him and have a personal relationship with Him.
I know this is all muddy and confusing.. which I also am. Please pray that my heart and mind are opened to Him, that I finally trust and surrender to Him. I don’t think we have lots of time left here.
Thank you so much, I’m desperate for prayer.
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Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.