LonelyLady67
Disciple of Prayer
Well here it is, yet another Valentine's Day coming up to cry myself asleep to again. My fingers are now numb & the arm also weak. I'm probably headed towards a stroke. I've suffered for so long now, have had so many surgeries. I'm saddened by the unfairness of it all. I have siblings that I don't have any contact with, because they're such criminals. They are truly bad people, I honestly don't know how we are related, we are such opposites. Their health & lives are just fine. I don't wish anything bad upon them, but am saddened & sickened at the unfairness of it all. I've been so lonely also for so long. I wouldn't doubt that I'm headed for a stroke now. Nothing good ever happens, may as well expect the bad because it always happens. I try to be a good, decent, honest, caring, kind human being. I somehow must deserve this bad health & utter loneliness. I miss just having my hand held. I'm giving up. Nothing good will ever happen for me or to me & I accept that now. How can I ask for more, when so many have even less than me? I accept that I will suffer more & remain alone. It just feels bad is all. I've cried myself to dehydration. Must pour down the water now. Thx for reading my crap life & praying for me.
