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Father,
I need your answer. I'm alone, lost, single, grinding out the moments of the world, the existence I've been in. My family is selfish, atagonizing, arrogant, and I am still alone. They love my pain. I am alone. I am lost. They leave me out family moments because I remind them that I am not like them. I look like the leper sitting at the gate. I dont want to spoil good times. I pray. I waiting. why keep telling me that your 'e going yto answer someday. Someday is now. I am in a place that I cant stnd the life that I lead. I feel like a joke on the bathroom stall wall. I cant do anything to change this situation Why do you dislkie me so much. Whyam I grinding out this existence. why I am hurt, adandoned, forgotten, and castill here...? I'm good looking (somedays). I'm still alone. I need prayer. Sure, joy may come in the morning, but I still have the same problem.. so it will be back. i dont want a pacifiier. I am trying to be faithful but You only responded to those who hoard themselves with wrongdoings. Am I so bad, am I so worthless, and avoidable that all day long you crave my pain? I cant stand this pain. I dont want to know if I can go on. I m not that bad. Im not that bad. Today, in my eyes, this has been so long that I've endured this walk, and treatment, faithfully, that you are looking like you are smiling at my (with) enemies. You are showing them vengence with my every breath. I suffer because they should be rewarded, even though I pray and fight and work and do everything that you ask- I receive none of their pleasure. YOure looking to me as though you want me to die. You look on so many with kindness and yet, here I sit, obeying you and lost at 36.
In Jesus' Name Amen/ Help.
I need your answer. I'm alone, lost, single, grinding out the moments of the world, the existence I've been in. My family is selfish, atagonizing, arrogant, and I am still alone. They love my pain. I am alone. I am lost. They leave me out family moments because I remind them that I am not like them. I look like the leper sitting at the gate. I dont want to spoil good times. I pray. I waiting. why keep telling me that your 'e going yto answer someday. Someday is now. I am in a place that I cant stnd the life that I lead. I feel like a joke on the bathroom stall wall. I cant do anything to change this situation Why do you dislkie me so much. Whyam I grinding out this existence. why I am hurt, adandoned, forgotten, and castill here...? I'm good looking (somedays). I'm still alone. I need prayer. Sure, joy may come in the morning, but I still have the same problem.. so it will be back. i dont want a pacifiier. I am trying to be faithful but You only responded to those who hoard themselves with wrongdoings. Am I so bad, am I so worthless, and avoidable that all day long you crave my pain? I cant stand this pain. I dont want to know if I can go on. I m not that bad. Im not that bad. Today, in my eyes, this has been so long that I've endured this walk, and treatment, faithfully, that you are looking like you are smiling at my (with) enemies. You are showing them vengence with my every breath. I suffer because they should be rewarded, even though I pray and fight and work and do everything that you ask- I receive none of their pleasure. YOure looking to me as though you want me to die. You look on so many with kindness and yet, here I sit, obeying you and lost at 36.
In Jesus' Name Amen/ Help.