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pearlsnlace
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HELP! My entire life I've lived to serve, bless and be blessed by God. I've had MANY trials and tribulations but have NEVER! doubted my Lord. Even after a year of divorce (left for my husband to join his gay lover), moving in with abusive mother, cancer, moving to a new place, losing friends and church family did I doubt. This last spring my mom died and since then I am terrified to go to church, pray, or just believe. What's happened! I've never doubted! adversity has always brought me closer to Jesus not made me run away! I'm afraid to believe and yet I do believe. I'm confused, which I've never been before. My mom was verbally abusive and in a way I feel released! Her type of faith was so strict ( not waring jeans or doing your nails, et.) that I always felt scared to breath or God would stike me down. Isn't there a way to live for Christ and still feel free? I don't want to be feel trapped anymore but I still want to live for Christ! Help me to see where I'm going a stray.