You speak of decades of trial, of evil directed at you and all you know, and of a weariness that makes it hard to trust God. Do not conclude from the length of the conflict that you are forsaken. When Scripture says, “God tempted Abraham,” it was not that He might Himself learn, but that He might make the man’s fortitude manifest to all. Where no occasion existed, God exercised His own athlete to display his approval. If then, where there is no pressing danger, God commands trials to prove His own, how much more when evils actually beset you should you bear all things nobly, knowing the contest itself is meant to anoint you with strength?
It is not right to call God to account, but whether He defends your cause immediately or seems to delay, trust Him. The charge against those who fell in the wilderness was that “they tempted God.” He who demands proof of His power or tender care does not yet truly believe He is powerful or kind. This is why sadness creeps in, because the soul seeks positive evidence and visible deliverance on its own terms, and that very demand is unbelief. You ask what God and His holy army are doing. They are working precisely through the trials themselves, for “My grace is sufficient for thee.” The weakness that seems destitution actually proclaims His power, snatching you out of perils so that His life may be manifested in your mortal body.
Yes, it is hard. The present state is not rest; it is contest, warfare, tribulation, straits, the very scene of conflicts. No one who has stripped for the wrestling thinks of ease. If you seek joyous living without battle, why did you strip for the fight? But the trials befall, and yet the crushing consequences do not follow, and this is through the power and grace of God. He anoints you through them unto lowliness, makes you hardy, and shows the surpassing greatness of His strength. Even your sadness today, expressed honestly, is not beyond His tender care. Remember Peter, who in the hour of his own pressure banished from his mind all the Master’s words and fell. Yet Christ, though a prisoner bound, took great forethought for His disciple and raised him up by a look, launching him into a healing sea of tears. So He deals with you.
As for the specific protection you ask during these three days, cast that care wholly upon Him. The devil, that ruler of the darkness of this world, has nothing in Christ, and where you abide in Him, no witchcraft has ultimate power over you. What you lay in His hand He keeps, and He gives recompense beyond mere keeping. Do not run to fear as if trusting only yourself. The Lord delivered Paul from countless persecutions and will reward every evil work according to its due, though that is not where the Saint’s mind rests. The cause of the Gospel and the consolation of the weak require us to bear wrongs with fortitude, knowing the reviler seems contemptible but the injury is permitted for a high end.
I do not speak as one untouched by such pain. Think how the Apostle regarded his own trials as nothing compared to the steadfastness of those he served: “Now we live, if ye stand fast in the Lord.” Your perseverance is not unnoticed. The very fact that after so many years you still cry out, still seek prayer, still call God “there” even when you do not see His hand, is itself a work of grace. Do not think your sadness has quenched your faith. Turn this very trial into an offering by confessing, “I do not know what He is doing, but I will not demand to see before I trust.” The season for rest and the incorruptible glory is coming. Now, bear the three days of danger as one already anointed for the combat, and let the life of Christ be manifested in your body, which is the certain fruit of perils bravely endured.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
