B
Brenda222
Guest
I feel like Ive been on a whirlwind. I changed jobs, big mistake, lost all friends, because they stopped being friends when I took their advice and lost everything, lost apartments, and lost my car, and lost everything. This last year has been so much hurt and pain. The enemy came into my life and then left. Everything the Lord blessed me with has been taken away one way or another. I dont know how all this happened when I was being such a faithful servent. I just wish I could turn back the hands of time to a year ago.
The only jobs that seem to be available for me are out of town, 500 miles away. If I have to go out of town to work I will have to leave my child, daddy will try to get custody because he is trying to say Im not a good mom already. My child does not want me to leave but I have no choice but to get a job and sleep in a shelter out of town nightly because I have to pay the rent here, I cant just up and leave my apartment, I have to have a place for me and my child to be together when Im in town. If I have to take a job out of town that would mean sleeping in a shelter every night in order to save busfare to get back to town to see my child. Its about an 8 or 9 hour bustrip so I would only get to travel back home, see my child one day, and then leave to go back out of town to work. I have been crying because I dont want to do this. I pray for a good job with good pay so I dont have to do this. This child has already said "I dont want you to go out of town to work because then I wont see much of you".
I am hoping the Lord will answer my prayers. I dont know how I listened to others. My life was so perfect. Everything in it was beautiful. I am hoping for a miracle. The Lord blessed me before when I was in this situation. I know I just need to have faith in him. I know I can straighten all this out once I get employment. I actually feel good this morning. I apply for jobs everywhere and for some reason I just keep thinking the Lord will bless me, work a miracle and let me go back to my job I left. I know they said I cant be rehired but I just know for some reason that the Lord is going to work a miracle. It doesnt stop me from applying for other jobs. I am thankful that the Lord let me see how bad and cruel so many people have treated me over this last year. I have been treated so cruel by people. I have been passed up while walking, passed up on the busstop by people, people come to my area and wont even offer me a ride. My child has lost the sports lessons so loved because we cant get there. I just actually feel good this morning that the Lord is going to bless me with a miracle. I have been so applying for jobs and now its to the point where I have to go out of town to work. I really do not want to do this and leave this child. GOD I GIVE YOU THE GLORY. Lord I thank you for opening my eyes and showing me so much. Lord you say the vengence is mine, not me. I am doing nothing to no one, no matter how much it hurts me, I pray for them, but Lord you say if I come to you and ask in your name that you will do anything in your will. Lord I am asking for forgiveness. I am asking you for a second chance to make these things right in my life and bless me with employment so I dont have to leave my child and can pay rent and get a car again. Thank you Jesus.
The only jobs that seem to be available for me are out of town, 500 miles away. If I have to go out of town to work I will have to leave my child, daddy will try to get custody because he is trying to say Im not a good mom already. My child does not want me to leave but I have no choice but to get a job and sleep in a shelter out of town nightly because I have to pay the rent here, I cant just up and leave my apartment, I have to have a place for me and my child to be together when Im in town. If I have to take a job out of town that would mean sleeping in a shelter every night in order to save busfare to get back to town to see my child. Its about an 8 or 9 hour bustrip so I would only get to travel back home, see my child one day, and then leave to go back out of town to work. I have been crying because I dont want to do this. I pray for a good job with good pay so I dont have to do this. This child has already said "I dont want you to go out of town to work because then I wont see much of you".
I am hoping the Lord will answer my prayers. I dont know how I listened to others. My life was so perfect. Everything in it was beautiful. I am hoping for a miracle. The Lord blessed me before when I was in this situation. I know I just need to have faith in him. I know I can straighten all this out once I get employment. I actually feel good this morning. I apply for jobs everywhere and for some reason I just keep thinking the Lord will bless me, work a miracle and let me go back to my job I left. I know they said I cant be rehired but I just know for some reason that the Lord is going to work a miracle. It doesnt stop me from applying for other jobs. I am thankful that the Lord let me see how bad and cruel so many people have treated me over this last year. I have been treated so cruel by people. I have been passed up while walking, passed up on the busstop by people, people come to my area and wont even offer me a ride. My child has lost the sports lessons so loved because we cant get there. I just actually feel good this morning that the Lord is going to bless me with a miracle. I have been so applying for jobs and now its to the point where I have to go out of town to work. I really do not want to do this and leave this child. GOD I GIVE YOU THE GLORY. Lord I thank you for opening my eyes and showing me so much. Lord you say the vengence is mine, not me. I am doing nothing to no one, no matter how much it hurts me, I pray for them, but Lord you say if I come to you and ask in your name that you will do anything in your will. Lord I am asking for forgiveness. I am asking you for a second chance to make these things right in my life and bless me with employment so I dont have to leave my child and can pay rent and get a car again. Thank you Jesus.