seanathon
Prayer Warrior
for help with genuine compassion and honesty, and good will, for help being still and not being tempted or compulsed for help not letting anger into my life, for help to get away from my nightmares in jesus christs name i pray ifeel very empty so i would ask that you guys may pray for my family i really felt like a failure today, i didnt feel much rest although i know that jesus was giving me good gifts in the form of amazing opportunities to be a brother today, i felt i fell short immensely and it has me very depressed i need help i need softrains i would also ask fo r the courage and calmness and stillness to pray for others with compassion, so that i may feel as if i am helping and that jesus not only sees me as a worthy individual but that perhaps i could do good and realize that jesus is even working through me, however this is something i would ask would only happen i guess from love mercy and compassion i would ask that i would feel all the love and mercy and compassionthat has ever been in my life and that i have ever shown, or if that is too grandiose i would ask that i would simply be able to take each calm day with joy because they are gifts, i know that my relationship with jesus is a personal thing and i am glad that jesus watches over me cares and i know can hear my prayer i know also that when i leave the computer my prayers for help in my family are heard and most importantly right now i feel is healing of my afflictions and anxieties so that i could show my family not to worry i do ask that i oculd just show some genuine compassion and gentleness today i would ask that i could get some calm restful sleep and that i not be tempted by the enemy nor i havesomething that i need to talk about because i dont really know what to do about it, i came back from catalina after the medicine incident with some anxiety because my friend had told me that i would be tested when i got back at first i was hoping to have faith and get through it and i knew that my family loved me but i felt a real uneasiness coming back home, i felt that my family was judging me left and right and putting projections on me i had felt great at the end of catalina i often felt that people really saw me there at catalina i felt clearer and more full of joy than i had in a long time, any way i need help with things here at home, im at the age 23 where i should have been moving on, but there was so much unfinished business at my house and so much debt from loans and i need to help my dad i ask for help i have big dreams and and really need help right now because recent events are trying to crush my hopes, first of all i am an opera singer and i want to perform at the metropolitan opera, it is a good goal of mine and i thank jesus for the beautiful voice i have to sing opera, people have told me i am good enough to go the metropolitan opera, and these are people who are very respectable and highly skilled in music, i would ask for help purusing my opera dream and that i would be humble and joyful in siging and pursuing my dream of opera amen that i would not let the recent events be able to deter my love of life and opera and jesus please search my heart amen, it is a beautiful night andi woudld just ask for abeautfiul good night sleep i tried to take on alot of problems today and i know that you want me to be happy and joyful with the beuautfiul days that yyou have made and iaksk for help sismply trusting that in stillness like when i would walk in teh beautiful fields and mountains of Catalina and Philmont as a boyscout but that i would have the toolss to recover i ask that jesus helps me to use the tools he has given to completely and progressively and calmly and humbly get better and away from all teh delusional stuff, my friend did not remember saying the thigngs he said it was during prayer that he said them, i honestly dont know what has been testing me but i woudl ask that jesus would inspire me and help me to deal peacefullly and socially with people and to have hope for the future, because i feel that i really need inspiration and rekindling of all the love and joy that i have for opera and my life and the pople in iti ask that i be able to see my life not just here with my family but in the future with joy for opera and dreams of being a awesome fun loving and respectable person, maybe even a good father some day although honestly that seems lightyears off i just am asking that i not obsess about he situatino here at home but also that i would be attentive and respectful and gentle to the situation at home, quite honestly the situation here has felt very difficult probably because of my own guilt i need help not being jealous of people i meet, i have self worth i am worth doing good for myself and the people in my life i think that a beautiful sleep would be just the ticket for what i need right now because honestly all these dumb delusions are just anxiety it is a beautiful calm night and i am glad to be a paryt of this wonderful world i ask that thjoy of singing would be able to be strengthened that i would be able to sing and know jesus hears me just like when i would do operas like la boeheme and all the loving services i did when i was at redlands i ask for help and for healing because i know i have had many guided and gracious times thanks to jesus and that there is no need to complain that i was given such an amazing life and gift to be able to sing for the people i have in my life and to be able to respect their compliments that i will be happy to just sing and give praise jesus please search my heart, because although i have felt strained recently i know thta you are good and that singing is my joy i ask for healing concerning the issues of this house but i ask that i put all the social issues out of sight and mind, i cannot please everyone and i need rest i ask that there be a way to connect with my family as a good son but that i would not let the issues of the day surround me, i ask that i can just show my family not to worry about me and may i not burden them any longer thats all i ask i ask also for peace and love and free time and calm to be with Myh mom mary hughes and with my dad Edward hughes i would ask that Edward Hughes be completely living freed of ny parkinsons that the new medicine and techniques that are coming out regarding parkinsons would be able to completely cure his illness, i admit that i had a very tough time getting out of college because of the fear that i had for my dad i am very tired, jesus you know i care but you know that i have been broken recently, i am asking for help to care again to not give into the idea that things are hopeless i ask for healing and full armor jesus i ask for help and calming, i ask that i can be still instead of delusional may i stop ahving delusions a jesus please guard me with a helmet and full armor i really need help and i am askng for protection and the defeat of any negativity that may be in this house, but also i would ask for less grandiosity, quite honestly i would ask that i would be still like resting at a lake when i was in the boy scouts, please i pray for the defeat of any compulsions and clarity in to my situation i ask for the defeat the angry delusional things and i would ask for the defeat of any trick of evil That i would trust any grace that is trying to work andd that where i did fail in trust this last year before pagliacci and recently with unballo in maschera that i would be able to ask for peaceful rains and calming jesus thank you for the beautfiul day and i would ask that i would stop feeling negative things be able to effect me i would ask that my senses would not just be calmed but that negative things would not be able to have any foothold anywhee in my house i would ask for calming and encouragement, i ask for help dealing my issues i ask for help for my whole family we love eachother but whatever the heck has been happening and i admimt that i have severerly messed things up but you forgive me and want me to move on it just feels like so much for me i need help i need to trust your help i do ask for help because honestlyi need help right now i need help believing that my prayers are genuine and iask for chastening and healing and guidance and in rest and stillness i would be able to calmly no longer have delusions jesus i do ask fo rhelp because i definetly am tired and i have felt harassed i am exhuasted i dont even know where the anger that hurt me so bad came from and i ask for forgiveness and the healing humility to believe that you hear me and love me and i know that you know me and that i loved when i was a kid so that givees me hope i am asking that this house would be healed and that the brokeness and emptiness i feel would simply be quenched with living water i ask in jesus n name
