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Humble Prayer Partner
About three years ago I came across this man who I dated, he has a son. I fell in love with his son as well as with him, they became my family everything that I had ever imagined my family to be like. For certain circumstances we stopped dating, I learned to accept it wasn't our time after I prayed for so long to help me understand why things had to end the way they did. Not to long ago the lord gave me the answer, which was because it was the only way he could get custody of his son since his mom was never around and not a good influence on him. A year went by and although he tried to get back we didn't. Back in August we decided to give it a try again at the same time he told me he was going to be relocating to his home state. This broke my heart but I knew that I still loved him and wanted to give us a chance. In a few days he will be leaving. This time around us being together has been so different and much better than the first time we dated. For so long I asked God to please heal my heart and to please not let me fall in love again and get heart broken that I rather be single and live my life and wait until it was the right time. The right time meaning until he knew that the person who he would put in my path was the one that I was suppose to be with that I didn't care how long it would take but I just didn't want to be heart broken again. A couple of weeks later was when my ex(current boyfriend) was put in my life again. I feel completely broken that he is leaving. We have talked about me leaving with him and starting a life together. He says yes at times and then there are times when he says no because he is scared that things won't work out and he would never be able to forgive himself for moving me across the country for things not to work out. I know that he loves me and I know god put him in my path again because this is OUR time. We completely each other and push each other to do better everything a couple does we aren't perfect but we are good for each other. I am asking for prayers for guidance for both him and I. Prayers for healing and clarity for him to not be scared of being hurt again, for him not to be scared of starting a new chapter together god brought us together for a reason I want to spend the rest of my life with him and our family we already have(###, his son and I plus our dog) and if it's in god's will add additional members to our family. It's hurting me to know he is leaving next week, knowing loves me and is just too scared to give us a chance, this time it's different this time it's our time. Please help me pray for him to see this the way I do and to have strength and courage to give us a chance, whether it is him staying here or us moving together. I need to mend and heal my heart too. Thank you and I appreciate your prayers I know the lord has a path for us and I truly believe mine is with him.
