Bagola2
Disciple of Prayer
Have you ever met someone you can just be sitting next to not even saying anything and you feel like there's nowhere else you'd rather be and it feels so right like you've known this person for an eternity? I met everything I could have dreamed of and more a few years ago. Everything was perfect but complete wrong timing for us. We were both just out of serious relationships. He went from saying he could see himself with me and the way he looked me in the eyes like he never wanted to stop looking at me to I wanted way more than he did. The way he acted and treated me was completely different then the things he said to me in the end. Things ended so bad between us and I lost an amazing friendship and potential relationship. This was about two years ago. We started talking again last year for a few months but he just randomly stopped talking to me again out of nowhere. Now he has a girlfriend. I'm so hurt by this. I've tried moving on and meeting new people but I don't want to be with anyone else. I havent felt anything for anyone like i did with Evan. I pray to God for healing, but I often dream about him and hear his name all the time. It's not fair. I'm tired of being sad all the time. No breakup has ever affected me this bad. It's embarrassing. I do really care about him and I really hope he's happy and gets whatever he wants in this life. I just wish it were me. If its Gods will I pray for somehow for him to work this out if not i pray for healing where I don't dream about him or think about him and feel nothing if I ever see him again, but I don't know when that will be as we are 2 hrs apart, both in grad school.
Thanks for your prayers,it means a lot.
Becky
Thanks for your prayers,it means a lot.
Becky
