Dyotorior
Disciple of Prayer
Greetings everyone, in the name of Jesus Christ, I am asking for prayers for God’s forgiveness and mercy for both my partner and I in our season of victory, that I pray He does not take from us because of our transgressions against Him, and Him alone. I made a covenant with the Lord that if He blessed my partner and I with redemption in our relationship and flee from premarital sex (fornication), that we will honor Him with our bodies throughout our courtship.
When I made that covenant with Him, I wasn’t able to speak with my partner at the time due to the enemy isolating her from me. I made an agreement with God for both of us without the ability to make it together at the time. It wasn’t until I repented fervently for our premarital sex that I heard the Lord speak to me for the first time in my life, telling me to go to her. He answered, He moved for us in an enormous way and reunited us, we spent the last few days together, and made incredible ground forward to the path He pointed for us to follow.
And though I honored not having sex, the mutual hurt felt from my partner by temporarily losing that ability to connect as one, during one of the nights we spent together, we came as close to it as you can. There was a day between that I had asked for God’s forgiveness for even getting close, that she and I spent together happily and nothing amiss between us. Yesterday, unprompted, fully predictable until then, like a light switch, out of nowhere she spoke and acted comprehensively irrationally. From making plans together later that day, waiting on God’s confirmation for Christian couples counseling, she went scorched earth, acting out of anger and impulse.
It is my fault, and I accepted my responsibility before God. For although we didn’t join as one flesh, the lustful things that we did still count as fornication. We fled from the obvious activities that could be considered as fornication, but I fully understand now that you don’t need to have sex for it to constitute as sexual immorality. I spent last night repenting, praying to God that I recognize and I fully understand what I, and we did, begging for Him to not forsake the covenant I made with Him and to undo the progress He blessed us with. For Him to turn away from His burning anger, and intervene and not punish and forsake us, in full compliance for what’s defined as fornication. Repentance for what I’ve done, and for Him to confirm it in her heart by blessing her with the miracle of hearing Him speak to her Himself that His will for us to seek godly counsel together.
The enemy has attempted to destroy the progress over the past few days and attempting to fully isolate us. I beg for prayers for wisdom to show me my next steps. I have my second appointment with the counselor today, please pray that God calls her to be there today, with His blessing and forgiveness for our sins. I apologize for the sporadic, ill written and severe vagueness of this request, I’ve been fervently praying for 24 hours and have begun a dry fast for forgiveness and repentance and as an intercessory act for my partner’s clarity. Thank you all, God bless you.
When I made that covenant with Him, I wasn’t able to speak with my partner at the time due to the enemy isolating her from me. I made an agreement with God for both of us without the ability to make it together at the time. It wasn’t until I repented fervently for our premarital sex that I heard the Lord speak to me for the first time in my life, telling me to go to her. He answered, He moved for us in an enormous way and reunited us, we spent the last few days together, and made incredible ground forward to the path He pointed for us to follow.
And though I honored not having sex, the mutual hurt felt from my partner by temporarily losing that ability to connect as one, during one of the nights we spent together, we came as close to it as you can. There was a day between that I had asked for God’s forgiveness for even getting close, that she and I spent together happily and nothing amiss between us. Yesterday, unprompted, fully predictable until then, like a light switch, out of nowhere she spoke and acted comprehensively irrationally. From making plans together later that day, waiting on God’s confirmation for Christian couples counseling, she went scorched earth, acting out of anger and impulse.
It is my fault, and I accepted my responsibility before God. For although we didn’t join as one flesh, the lustful things that we did still count as fornication. We fled from the obvious activities that could be considered as fornication, but I fully understand now that you don’t need to have sex for it to constitute as sexual immorality. I spent last night repenting, praying to God that I recognize and I fully understand what I, and we did, begging for Him to not forsake the covenant I made with Him and to undo the progress He blessed us with. For Him to turn away from His burning anger, and intervene and not punish and forsake us, in full compliance for what’s defined as fornication. Repentance for what I’ve done, and for Him to confirm it in her heart by blessing her with the miracle of hearing Him speak to her Himself that His will for us to seek godly counsel together.
The enemy has attempted to destroy the progress over the past few days and attempting to fully isolate us. I beg for prayers for wisdom to show me my next steps. I have my second appointment with the counselor today, please pray that God calls her to be there today, with His blessing and forgiveness for our sins. I apologize for the sporadic, ill written and severe vagueness of this request, I’ve been fervently praying for 24 hours and have begun a dry fast for forgiveness and repentance and as an intercessory act for my partner’s clarity. Thank you all, God bless you.
