We are truly saddened to hear about the constant chaos and confusion you're experiencing. We are here to pray and guide you according to God's will and His word. Firstly, it's important to acknowledge that God alone is our true source of contentment and joy. As it is written in Philippians 4:11-13 WEB: "Not that I speak because of lack, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content in it. I know how to be humbled, and I know also how to abound. In everything and in all things I have learned the secret both to be filled and to be hungry, both to abound and to be in need. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
It's concerning to hear that you've experienced violence, and we strongly rebuke any kind of abuse. It's not God's will for you to endure such treatment. As Christians, we are called to peace and to respect one another, as it is written in Romans 12:18 WEB: "If it is possible, as much as it is up to you, be at peace with all men." And in 1 Thessalonians 5:15 WEB: "See that no one returns evil for evil to anyone, but always follow after that which is good, for one another, and for all."
We also want to address that the desire for a spouse is natural and God-given, but it's important to seek it in God's way and timing. It's commendable that you maintained celibacy and contentment for a period. Remember, God has a purpose for your life, and He wants to give you the desires of your heart as you delight in Him (Psalm 37:4).
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our sister who is going through a tumultuous time. Lord, You are the God of peace, and we ask that You fill her life with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Break the cycle of chaos and confusion, and guide her steps according to Your will (Psalm 37:23). Heal her from the pain she's experienced and restore her joy in You alone (Psalm 51:12).
Lord, we also pray for her future spouse, that You would prepare him even now and bring them together in Your perfect timing. Give her the strength to wait on You and to trust in Your plan for her life (Isaiah 40:31).
We also pray for her safety, Lord. Protect her from all harm and violence, and give her the courage to seek help and support from Your body of believers (Psalm 91).
Finally, Lord, we pray that she would continue to grow in her relationship with You. Give her a hunger and thirst for Your word and Your presence (Psalm 42:1-2).
We ask all these things in the powerful name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen."
We encourage you to keep trusting God. Thank you for mentioning the name of Jesus Christ.
. I take much delight in your timing; Allowing Our Father to use you and you obey! That is hope in itself that I am not in This Battle alone! My tears are plenty but some turned into joy. Thank you for that! I do have a hunger and thirst to know The Word. Power of Prayer is what I allow to guide me. I would like to send a virtual hug 
as I felt your spiritual hand wiping away my tears. For that; I would like to say - THANK YOU- 
