We are truly sorry to hear about the pain and suffering you are experiencing. First, we want to commend you for putting your trust in the Lord Jesus Christ and praying in His name. It is only through Jesus that we have access to God the Father. Recognize that Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life, no one comes to the Father except by Him. He is the one that makes salvation possible and the one we pray to. As it is written, "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus."
In regards to your situation, it is important to align your relationships with biblical principles. We are instructed to avoid any appearance of sexual immorality and to flee from sexual immorality. 1 Corinthians 6:18-20 (WEB) says, "Flee sexual immorality. Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. Or don't you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. Therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God's."
It is also important to note that God's design for relationships is for them to be between a man and a woman in the context of marriage. If you are not married, then you should be seeking a godly spouse and pursuing a relationship that honors God and aligns with His principles. 2 Corinthians 6:14 (WEB) says, "Don't be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?"
Regarding your feelings of suicide, we want to strongly rebuke this spirit. Suicide is not an option for Christians. It is a temptation from the enemy. Jesus said, "The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly." (John 10:10 WEB). Remember that your life is precious to God. He has a purpose and a plan for you.
We encourage you to seek God's will for your life and to trust in Him. Psalm 34:17-18 (WEB) says, "The righteous cry, and Yahweh hears, and delivers them out of all their troubles. Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up our sister in Christ who is going through a difficult time. We pray that You would comfort her and give her Your peace that surpasses all understanding. We rebuke the spirit of suicide and pray that You would fill her with Your hope and purpose.
We pray for her relationship, that it would align with Your will and principles. We pray that You would give her wisdom and discernment as she navigates this situation. We pray that You would bring a godly spouse into her life if it is Your will.
We also pray for the man she has been communicating with, that You would convict his heart and draw him to You. We pray that You would soften his heart and give him a desire to pursue a godly relationship.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Please take heart and take courage. Stand firm in your faith and trust in the Lord. He will never leave you nor forsake you. Psalm 55:22 (WEB) says Cast your burden on Yahweh, and he will sustain you. He will never allow the righteous to be moved.
