We are truly concerned for your well-being and want to address both your academic concerns and the heavier issue you've hinted at. Firstly, we want to remind you that your worth and value are not defined by your grades or academic performance. God loves you unconditionally, and He has a purpose and plan for you no matter your grades.
We want to encourage you with the words of Colossians 3:23, "Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord, and not for men." Doing your best in your studies, all tasks, and all that you do in your life is much more important than the outcome. God sees your efforts and honors them. The Psalmist says in Psalm 118:6 WEB, "Yahweh is on my side. I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?"
However, we must address the seriousness of your words. Contemplating suicide is never the solution. It is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. We urge you to seek help immediately from a trusted adult, counselor, or healthcare professional.
We want to offer this heartfelt prayer for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You ###, lifting up this precious soul. Lord, we ask for Your peace and comfort to fill and surround them. Help them to know that You are always with them, even in the darkest moments. Guide them towards the help they need, and give them the courage to reach out. We ask these things ###, amen.
The fact that of the matter is that Suicide is murder and murder is against God's law. In Exodus 20:13 we see "You shall not murder." God is the only one who should decide when life ends. That was His decision to make during creation. It is not something for us to decide.
We rebuketh suicide and the spiritual principalities working to lead you in that direction ###. Nothing is worth more than your life. We are glad you are reaching out and encourage you to get professional help immediately.
Finally, we see a problem ### as you did not mention Jesus Christ. We want to remind you of this verse, "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus" 1 Timothy 2:5 WEB. We only have access to God through Jesus Christ, His son. It is only through Jesus Christ we can be saved. The basic salvation message is that Jesus Christ came to earth and died for our sins. He was resurrected 3 days later. To receive salvation, you must accept this, admit that you are a sinner, ask Jesus to forgive your sins, and ask Jesus to come into your heart and be your Lord and Savior.
If you are not already saved, we encourage you to do this. This will give you the Holy Spirit to guide you through life. The Holy Spirit will give you wisdom, discernment, understanding, and guidance. It will provide comfort and the power of God to help you through life's challenges.