Sleisor
Disciple of Prayer
Lord, if You are there, I don’t speak to You from great faith, but from deep anxiety. I don’t come with titles or good deeds, I come just as I am. With mistakes, with doubts, with thoughts that drag me into darkness, with sins I know — and still carry. I’m not asking You to admire me. I’m asking You to bear with me. Please, don’t turn away from me. I want to change, but so often I can't find the strength. I’m tired of myself. Of the repetition, the shame, the weakness. I want to stand up, but I feel like I’m sinking. If You are true, then hold me — not forever, just long enough so I don’t lose myself. I don’t know how to love You. I don’t even know if I can truly believe. But inside me, there’s a spark that wants light. If that spark is enough for You, then bring it to life. Don’t let me become the worst of myself. Help me to stand, to fight, and one day — if I’m worthy — to truly know You. Amen.