Prayer? I've prayed all my life, had MORE than the

[kupkake]

Prayer? I've prayed all my life, had MORE than the faith of a mustard seed and have only gotten crumbs. I've always had a cross next to my bed, I just took it down. It's been 10 years of struggle, 2 business not doing well no matter how hard I try. A job that I loved, but there is so much nepotism now, I can't get anywhere. My family has told me how amazed that they are of the courage and determination I have had and for so many years. For what? God just tosses me little crumbs. I feel like a begging dog. My marriage ended after opening my arms up to the daughter that my husband "found out about" (he knew, he lied about it). I loved her and she loved me, until one day she called me a loser. I don't know why? Whatever her father said about me was not true. He was jealous b/c we got so close. He abandoned her, she found him when she was 15 and they got close. But when her and I started to bond, he started to act up and said things to her about me and lied. We divorced and I never heard from her again. It broke my heart. I didn't deserve it. I have worked SO hard, jumped through hoop after hoop, spent years and money on my businesses. My close friends and family can't believe that I haven't given up, and have told me how courageous I am, well, I'm 50, have worked hard, taken responsibility for myself, don't have a lazy bone in my body, have always been very responsible and I don't have anything to show for it. Not even a home. I've prayed and prayed for direction, blessings, etc. I'm in a small studio apartment with my boyfriend (never wanted to live w my boyfriend, but had to move away from a drunk roommate who was a nightmare and had nowhere else to go). I'm attractive, smart, hard-working, God loving, woman. Not anymore. I think God is cruel. It's been too little for too long and I have lost faith. I thought I would NEVER say that. Even when I was down I didn't blame or give up on God. I'm exhausted, tired of praying, having faith, keeping a smiling face. I have designed a line of handbags, I'm also a wedding coordinator for a company, and started my own coordinating business. I have had fantastic reviews, etc. I've had brides tell me how amazing I am at what I do. Even had a recent bride who was so very sweet tell me "you are an amazing person. Any man that gets you is very lucky. You are a very special person" And I'm still living like this? Prayer? All prayer has done for me is frustrate me. I am not a person who likes to waste time. Time is precious to me and I have made the most out of it and have always been a very grateful person, but it's been too little for too long! I deserve a home, a family and happiness. People always tell me, "you're always smiling", they have no idea the pain I have inside, disappointment, exhaustion, trying to not let bitterness take root, etc. I'm so tired of trying.

 

[Prayerblue7]

Merciful Father, often we feel as the apostles in the bible. Our trials are extraordinary. Our consolations feel slight. "We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed" 2 Corinthians 4:8

We are reminded that you will see us through every trial. Help us to look to you and draw close to you. Send your Spirit to comfort us and give us peace. We know you work all things for the good for those who love you. Though we may not see it now, give us eyes of faith to know that all is indeed working together for our good and your glory. Dwell with us. In Jesus' name. Amen.

 

[Dove77]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[glasscutter7]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

Father God I hear the frustration in the despair that your child is feeling at this moment. Father I hear this child of yours is ready to give up and ready to throw in the towel. Father please bless her in a huge way in a way that there's no doubt that this blessing comes from you. Father give her hope. Give her a reason to keep moving forward and to keep believing in you. Father I know that you love your child but she's at a place in her life or she needs you to really show her how much you love her. Father I ask that you show her in a big big way. In Jesus name I pray, Amen

 

[Barbara3381]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Hope4joy]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Prayerblue7]

   It is hard when we look at ourselves and our lives...it can be discouraging.  It is tough when we look at others lives, when we feel hurt or let down...it can be disheartening.  The enemy loves it when we take our eyes off Christ.  It is so easy to become entrenched in the pain we feel, the battle, our sin and/or someone else's.

    The battle is real.  The enemy wants to destroy our faith.  The enemy wants us to doubt God and His word.  He seeks to destroy us.  We must take up the full armor of God and fight.  Rebuke the enemy with scripture.  He who us in you is greater than He who is in the world!  Read some of the blogs on this site.  What you are going through is tremendous and you are not alone.

    List the blessings that you have even if it feels ridiculously tough right now.  I need to do it also.  We are alive.  We are breathing and can think fairly clearly.  We have access to bibles.  We have food.  We have brothers and sisters all over the world that care about us.  Many are being persecuted right now for their faith. They need our prayers.  We have a roof over our heads.  Many do not. We have clean water and access to medical care.  We have beds and pillows and some of us have cars.  Many of us can walk.  We can see and hear.  We are very rich compared to others in the as world evidenced by the aforementioned blessings.  We don't have perfect relationships- no one does.  We may struggle with our emotions- many people do.  Every single thing in this world is fleeting.  No house, business, car or bank account can bring you happiness.  It is a lie.  A lie that the enemy would love for us to get lost in.

    Lasting  happiness and peace can  only be found in Christ who loves His children dearly and gave His life to save them.  He never promised an easy road. Quite the opposite in fact.  BTW The health and wealth movement is a lie. Jesus said to count the cost.  He promised to never leave us.  He promises eternal life to all that call upon and believe in Him.  He also promises that we can call upon Him in the day of trouble and He will answer.  I have found His promises to be true.  I have found Him to be faithful and a stronghold, a rock a fortress and a refuge.  You can take God at His word.  I read the Psalms and find that I have much in common with folks from the good book that followed Him.  

  When I look at myself and others -there is much to be discouraged about.  When I look to Jesus there is everything to be encouraged about,  and therein lies my hope!  I pray you will find hope there too.  Hope for today, tomorrow and eternity!  God bless you we are praying for you.  I hope somehow this helps! In Jesus' Name, Amen.  

 

[Nineteen51]

The Lord will fight for you, and you shall hold your peace. Exodus 14:14

 

[Jesus'friend]

I can relate and know exactly how you feel since I've lost a few homes myself, but continue  praying for restoration. But you just can't give up, it's a spiritual war. You still have Your whole life ahead of you. All my family are so blessed with it all...and, they look at us and feel sorry for us. But, they dont have Jesus...Don't blame God,  blame the devil. ..the word says " My people parish for lack of knowledge..."  He will see us through,  Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivered them out of them ALL, Hallelujah!  Ep 6:11;  Is. 54:17 God Bless

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[JesusIsMyOnlyHope]

Please pray for other people in here as well! Other people need your prayers as much as you need theirs! Prayer is not about simply posting requests and asking others to pray for you. You need to pray for others too. We do not have designated people in here whose job is to pray for everybody 24h a day while others just keep posting their requests! People who are selfish in prayer, do not have a very successful spiritual life!!!

 

James 5:16 "Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working."